mixed emotions
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
i have told ki about him. somehow, one way or another, when i reached home, and when i talked to him, i really truly felt that i have made the wrong choice. this feeling sux. truly. it feels like i have just let go of some1 who is capable of loving me all his heart, for someone that i don't even know whether i can have a future with. what am i blinded by? i am always fucking confused. i felt the immediate difference just now... like he does not sit next to me, like he does not give that eye contact with me, like he smokes a whole lot just now.. what have i done? i have made the wrong choice. its too late to turn back now isnt it? tsk. el, what is el? as much as i'm feeling like this, i guess he deserve better...
