It was just like the old tyms...
*sigh*
I miss this closeness.
I do.
But nothin can change this.
Period.



Hey.. wow...think its been what...2 weeks that i didnt update. hahah..
bz i guess. i duno.. hahahha..

lets c..

oh. i called Harris up when he was in China.
i know that i have to bear the expenses.
i duno if he appreciates it or not.
i doubt so.
*sigh*

ermmm...
celebrated Did's bdae surprise at West Coast.
Dark soy sauce rules man!!! hahahha
she was stinkin so bad that it was truly nauseating!! lol
we had Taboo at Mc D.
it was all cool.
i guess.
gtg. Syafiq is here.




They are just soooooo adorable...!!
geram!!!


The mummy. The Adik. The Abang.
Gosh. yeah. TGIF.
Finally. seems just like ytd..it was monday. hahahaha..
the above photos are taken when i visit my nenek for buka.
went out after that wif my aunt. She blanja me Himalayan Tea Latte at Mc Cafe ( a personal fav there! only 4 the sweet-toothies!! heheh) and sushi!!
Ramen Ten sushi is soooooooooooooooooooooooo TAK SEDAP!!!
sth is just off about it. eeewww!!!

Today, went to work as normal. nothin much.
durin the 1 hr interval, i called Az up and had a chat wif her.
She was askin me bout Harris.
Gosh i miss him. Darn. y ar? aiyoyoyoyo..
And yeah. she said it again. He's just not into me. :(
He went to China liao. if he do think about me (wich i wun count on), he'll text me.
otherwise...u know lah huh...


i started the Imesh routine already. hahaha..
just a distraction or..i duno..hahahha...



so yeah..things to do tonyte!!!
1. sort out financial shit
2. clean the fan
3. clean the room (forever!hahahh4. wash dishes
5. gosok kain yg Orix berakkan (damn u Orix!)



i'll be out wif TnT tomoro!!! update u guys on that..!
Btw, the kid text me ask to come for tuition tis Sunday. wth ryte?!! haiyoyoyo..
I cant create miracles ya know..
:(



laters!



wei... wlw. super penat say nari. truly. tak tahu naper.
padahal tadi pagi semangat bangun sahur. i think its because i sahur..hahah..
i had cornflakes cereal today!!! HAHAH...semangat beli.
i bought strawberry yoghurt as well.. hehee..and feed on plain water..
no more sweet stuphs. no more!!!

pening say nari. penat. same thing.
aper cakap ni?
hahahhaha...

i gave in and texted Harris ytd. and he called me. told me bout wats goin on in his life (bz as always) and about his coming china trip thing that keeps postponing and his vessel carryin soya beans wich apparently cost 38million or sth... oh well, basically he was blabberin about his work... and i listened. i didnt talk much except gave constructive comments to acknowledge. 10 mins tops and he said he gtg as his captain call.

he said he'll call me back.
i know he wont.
so yeah.
it sux. this feelin.

back hurts.so so much.
HELP! HELP!

Yus on the other hand, continued to text me and call me.
why am i soooo malas to layan him. i duno.
padahal i was sooo excited to get to know him. kan didi? kan? LOL
eh....tak boleh tau! ahhaha...

Zaza called me to enquire about Thailand coz she's goin in december.
macam nak ikot ajer say. hahahha...but it wudnt be d same. never be the same.
i really happily tell her watever she wants to know...
hahahaha...weeeeeeeee!!!

later then..!!



i got an email from yus wich is super adorable..




Hey...you babes might not know of Mr Francis.






wow...its the 40th post in less then 2 months..hahahah...

oh well..ytd met up wif the babes!!! weeeeeee!!!
it was a blast! love em to bits. camwhorin as usual.
too bad the pics are wif mai. if not i wud have updated them. :)
well, i just ermmm kinda wake up say 1 hour plus2 or so and yeah. chattin.
imesh. wer else. this tym, its just to pass my tym...before i decide wat to do the rest of the day.
hehehe..

We went to eat at Popeyes, T3 and there were sooo many people. worst. CHINESE. dammit.
wat? havin dinner? oh hey...heres a shout out: WE ARE BREAKING OUR FAST!!! which part u dun understand...u ignorant fools!!! darn. sabar2. masih puasa ni nura. tak bagus tau. hehehe.. but well, there was a kind soul in the midst of evritin. a chinese guy actually notice we've been there for quite a while and he asked us to grab the seats since we have been waitin that long. thanks MR!! hahah.. but the disappointin part was... there were no biscuits!!! temporarily OOS. out of stock. darn!!! i came there for the biscuits!! anooyin!!!! annoyin!!! damn u popeye.

and we went around western part of SG to find a place to chill. Mai was drivin. and we were at west coast. no parkin slot. thus...went to IMM...had Secret Recipe cakes for desserts!! weeeeee!
4 of em.
1. Oreo Cheese...fuyyoh!! felt lyk orderin one more lah!! hahahah
2. Royal Chocolate
3. Chocolate indulgence. both lyk same2...chocoholics...wat do u expect ryte? ahhahah
4. ouh...all tym fav: chocolate banana...weee!!!

and then we head home. hehe..
babes said:
1. shud not go 4 tuition if she didnt call me. but i shud just say no if i'm lazy since they dun pay me. hahah.
2. harris is not into me. so shut it!

so ok...i'm listenin to em now...

things to do:
1. clean up room.
2. meet TB at TPY.
3. get wallet fr Mai!!! or shud i say MAK.
4. wash my dreads. again!

so yeah..

ermmm....
EH, TAK BOLEH TAU!!!
muahahahhahahaahhahahahha

p.s. Happy 1 year Az & Aez...



Dammit lah!!!
Hahahahha...
i just washed my dreads. my hair and scalp to be exact.
Just reached home as well.
Gosh...actually wanna do the whole process tomorrow. as in clean my hair, scalp, get rid of the dandruffs thats like berkeladak gileR! and yeah. you read it right. Dandruffs!!! ewww!! yeah..
but wat to do..thats the after effects of dreads. haha..just have to bear wif it and be discipline enuff to clean those shit out. i guess those rumours bout ppl havin dreads and things growin and smelly hair and all is true. that is if the stupid idiotic fellow (shit.i'm cursin ppl here.tsk tsk) is not discipline enuff to take care of those dreads!!! duh! i love my dreads. thus i wanna keep it clean n all. hahah..

i wanted to get the knotty locks shampoo from Rastafari shop at Marina Square (the only place in S'pore where you can get those dreads related items.Gosh) but apparently, they are close for renovations. they will open a booth at Suntec on 15th October!! haahha...just lurve to hear the date. aint know why. hahahah.. but i did order fr them the shampoo wich apparently they have to get the stock from Melacca. WTH!!! annoyin!!! so yeah. i am stuck wif the normal shampoo to get things done. i read that thos shampoo is darn good (gosh i'm itchin all over even after the bathe and scrub) as it contains certain oil or sth that keeps the scalp clean and free from the Ds! hahah.

Went to meet Mai on Tuesday. Went Geylang for our mission:
My mission:
1. get my rectangular abuk2 kinda kuih
2. get air katira

Mai's mission:
1. get baju raya

so we went there say 8pm by car and it was jam all the way. 2 accidents.
and the carpark was difficult but manage to get one at the SingPost building. =)
so we went thru the bazaar. and i saw a kuih shop. went in and notice this guy wif a rasta head thingie facing down. then went in, look2 and then he stood up "cari kuih aper?"
and i turn to him...OH MY FREAKIN GAWD!!! WWWoooooah!! gosh he's soooo darn good looking lar. but vain. wear contacts. but nice skin. not skinny, just right size to hug. gosh...yeah..registered that the moment we met eye to eye. "tau tak kuih rectangle2, abih dia berabuk2. kaler putih?" and he paused, looked around...and "oooh...kuih ni..kuih batang buruk."
HE IS MY HERO lor....i asked my supvsr,uncle at work, mom & dad. they cant answer me lor...
He sure as hell knows his kuih!!! soooo cute lor. and he let me & mai try... sedap lah!! so i bought 1 pkt. $7.50. weeee...i do know that i will come back to buy ermmm...noo...to c him. hahahah..

Mission accomplished.

we walked and Mai found her shop. tried few pieces here and there. great service from the salesgirl. and we walked away wif a blue baju raya wich was really2 nice...for $75. aik. baru aku realise. sama number?!!hahaha.. you know ar...maybe its just me. i just cant stand gals who do not respect Ramadhan at all. even tho we dun wear tudong, at least pakailah sopan sikit...dah 11 bulan kau pakai itu mini skirt, baju aper string lah aper lah, atau baju yg berlongkang2... 1 bulan kau tak pakai tak leh ke? mati eh tak tunjuk benda2 kau ader 1 bulan?? Haiizz....but then again, its them. its not me. why shud i care? =) kepo ar. hahaha...

Mission accomplished.

Then, went around to get air katira..hehehe..soya bean, pandan & bandung!!! weeee...

Mission accomplished. and we sat down, ate our takoyaki balls and i was super freakin full!!
and home we go!! weeee!!!!

today i went out wif Jamal. it was cool. went to catch Babylon AD. and ate at Marina Foodloft and chilled at *bux. 1 thing bout him is that he also talks tooooo much of himself.
he tried to get comfy wif me but i rejected flat. =)
tot of Harris thruout. darn.

oh yeah. errrrmm...i puasa setengah hari today. =) sorry babes. errmm...
soooooo cravin for MacD. so i called Mcdelivery. hehe..
haiz....nafsu. Cobaan...hai mambang tanah, mambang air, mambang api....
*bluek*

its say 40 mins to sept 12. Harris bdae. i did not msg him for the past two days.

i think ar...guys ar. haizzzz...if u tell them, ur not ready for r.ship, they will try their best to win ur heart. but if u tell them u like them, they'll just ignore u. wassup Man???annoyin bunch.

i was thinkin whether i shud get him sth for his bdae. i mean a friend2 thing. not more.
shud i babes?
shud i even text him when he doesnt give a hoot about how i am or how am i doin???
i think i shudnt. just be quiet.
yep. i think i'll do just that.

oh btw, u know wat babes?
i was supposed to get my tuition pay, the very week i go bangkok.
and the mom said too early, she has no money.
and when i asked for it, just sooooo like dun wanna give me the money lar.
leceh nak trsfr lah. aper lah. then wheni collect ytd, like almost a month after that day,
i only get $150. haiz.....i know syukur lah dah dapat. ya. wat can i say right? gosh.
and mind you, the agreed amt was $220. last month, i got $200 only. so technically, they owe me $90. haioyyooy..this is the problem wich teachin ppl u know. nvm. sooooo used wif ppl steppin on me. since i quiet2 wat. *sigh*
do u think i shud come this sunday?for tuition?
she's not helpin herself.
but parents and herself are expectin me to create miracles.
come on man. get real!!! darn.

oklah..wanna sleep liao.
nytes.
weeeee..
niat pls. puasa nura!!!



tot that i should blog b4 i go to sleep.
but well...the internet gave sum probs just now and now i'm too lazy to blog.
darn. hahah..

nytes then everyone.
have a great Thursday!!

ouh...btw, its once in a life time that one can write the date like this..
1o/9/8

hehehe...nytes again.
*hugs*



funny how we feel we're gonna get sick at the same tym.

we are havin sore throat and runnin nose.

period.

i suck at handlin my own feelings.
sucky.

i totally blew up things wich were goin just fine btw me and him.
things were just fine.
why do i have to make things complicated?
why nura?
aiyoyo...!
dahlah....if he does not wanna talk to ya.
then u deserve it!
nonsense.

arrrrrgh!



bird. What's the story morning glory? says:
if u tink u hv doubts in me, take ur time to know more guys too den slowly take ur time to choose whos the best for u..compare it in ur own heart cos this is ur future u know..

the very advice i gave all the guys that have pinned up hopes on me.
karma.

bird. What's the story morning glory? says:
frm now till den, i dunno who will be my partner cos im like u...we hv alot of opp sex friends..

i used to. but not now.

bird. What's the story morning glory? says:
if u hv to know, you are one of my closest frens in the way i treat u..

read it. i've said d very same thing.

bird. What's the story morning glory? says:
trust me..makin u hurt is the last thing on my mind cos im not a heartbreaker..

bird. What's the story morning glory? says:
i dun want to be..

just like i used to be...darn. this is truly happening to me.
*sigh*
its clear enuff that i'm not the one.
I know this coz i've been there, done that.
Till i met him.
I am not the one.
He's not the one.
I want him to be the one.

waitin is pointless.
but i guess i hv to settle for friendship and look elswhere.
but the more i spend tym wif him...the more these feelings grow.
he treats every gal that he knows the same.
includin me. shikes. just like me. last tym.
darn...

I'm totally done for this tym.
God help me.



Boy A was a blast.









Well, i met up wif Az on Thursday...ryte babe? and well, we saw each other's hair!!! hahaha..



I'm crying again. :(...
I've no idea why...tell me babes...
why do i still feel the hurt even when i know i've moved on.
I dun need him. but i can still feel the hurt.

I was happily cleanin up my room and then there was the file.
File where we used to keep all the receipts from the first tym we met till it got worse...
I've always wanted to throw them away or burnt them but i tot it would be great if we could burnt them together to signify we've moved on but didnt get around to do so.
and so as i was just reminscing the receipts, gosh. Just tooooooo much memories...
From the small memos from Pulau Tekong where he would take time off just to spend tym wif me. earliest dated 23/07/05. And its not once or twice...its a LOT of tyms. He would brave the ferry ride from Tekong to Changi Terminal and long riding journey to Woodlands just to be with me... sigh...those were the days. And the endless mcs that he took as well that landed him extras in camp.Serious business. people in lurrve i guess.

and then there is this receipt where we rented Harry Potter cds just to watch together over at his place. ooohh...how we have soooooooo many similarities that we sumtyms reflect each other. Another of our fav. Lord of the Rings where we would watch the trilogy over n over and not get sick and tired of it.. =) movie tickets...too many movies in 3 years.. and not to mention the countless tyms we watch FRIENDS episodes together over at my place online...and we even bought the FRIENDS DVD Trivia game and played anytym we can to test our knowledge on the episodes. thats how crazy we were!! soooo nice.. *sigh*and speaking of wich, i love the tyms wer we wud spend nights wif his AC bros just playin board games at Arab st or sum1s place/chalet. U name it. Risk, Scrabble, Pictionary, Cluedo, Charade, Taboo...we've played most and one of the stupidest yet funny game we played at MICE cafe was the duck got shoot game. wif Imran. gosh.
I even bought Cluedo and Taboo for myself coz i was addicted to them. =)

and yet another receipt would be Queensway shopping Centre Optics Today where we bought our couple set glasses together. in green. loving them... and that ended when i saw that bitch wearin his. *sigh*

and its weird how we like to go SIM LIM as well... usually for Wak Nordin's computer stuphs and sumtyms memory cards for my parents... =)

includin in the mess is also an air ticket to Brunei.
Yeah. He went to Brunei for almost a month. N i remember missing him soooo much.
And i would keep my phone at work so that wen he calls, i could pick up just to hear his voice... and the day that he came back, i cudnt sleep. too excited. when i saw him, i ran to him and hug him. really. just like in the movies. and he kissed me... *sigh* and then he gave me a bear soft toy with material just like i love... it says "I love you forever." and i was the envy of Niza that tym. =) but well...yeah ryte. forever my foot!

and the many summons that he had gotten over the years coz of smoke composition, illegal parkin..and others.. n how we battled financially to settle them coz we shared money together. Umi even borrowed him money to settle his insurance and road tax. UMI LOVED HIM. too much. *sigh* anak menantu Umi lah katakan... *sigh*and trips to NEA...VICOM...almost everitin he needed my company. i miss that kinda neediness.

and then there were the receipts to Genting where we had our first hols together. *sigh*
and the second holiday wer we went wif our football craze to KL... gosh.

dated:20/10/06
we did a joint account together. 5 days after my birthday.
he was keen on it. "For our future" he says.
I believed him. i did. really.

i was there for his POP at Tekong.
I was there for his Turn Ops Parade. 1st Guards.
wat else??? i was with him when everitin wasnt ryte in his life.
I was there waiting for him to settle down after NS coz he said he needed a break.
I was there even when he went for interview that day at Adidas where he got the job. for the whole day coz there were many parts for the interview.
And then wif Adidas, our r.ship just go down wif it... :(

It has been very difficult lettin him go.
It has been very difficult forgettin bout him.
It has been very difficult to move on.
Truly.
If i have been tellin people I've moved on.
So why is it hurt that i feel when i reminisce?
He was my soulmate.
He was my bestfriend.

I loved him.
Too much.

*sob*

Pink - Who Knew
You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me
You'd be around
Uh huh
That's right

I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better'
Cause you said forever
And ever Who knew

Remember when
We were such fools
And so convinced
And just too cool
Oh no, No no.
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you a friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever And ever
Who knew

I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long goneI'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep Your memory
You visit me in my sleep

My darling
Who knew
My darling My darling
Who knew My darling
I miss youMy Darling
Who Knew Who knew



as much as i want to go terawih evriday.
I cant do it. =(
I'm very tired today.
legs are painful.cramps.
I know. reasons.
I'll try to make up for it the rest of Ramadhan.
Insya'allah.

But since,i didnt go, i guess cleanin up my room will be a gud idea.
laters!

Isit just infatuation?



just a mental note for myself: from msn chat.

bird. What's the story morning glory? says:
pls dun tink dat i dun like u or i hate u or i reject u or sumthing like dat k

el says:
hehehhee..

el says:
dun worri...u dun have to put it that way

el says:
i'm ok aite

bird. What's the story morning glory? says:
ofcos i like u but its jz me...i have issues wif my own self..

el says:
no worries aite

el says:
hahaha

bird. What's the story morning glory? says:
and yes ur previous msg was rite..im afraid to love..

bird. What's the story morning glory? says:
i need to sort my emotions first b4 i need to start loving ppl again..i dunn want to commit..yet...till im really really ready..

bird. What's the story morning glory? says:
and i know u oso dun want to me to make u my rebound gf...we both agreed on dat..remember? so dats y i need time to figure my stupid love life whiich is always not right..

bird. What's the story morning glory? says:
bottom line is i do like u...

bird. What's the story morning glory? says:
dats all u need to know..k

laters!!



Sunday did happened.

Awesome.

it was a dream come true date.
except that it wasnt a date at all.
but nonetheless,
gosh!

Met up with him at Tampines Mall.
Caught "Forgetting Sarah Marshall" wich was wickedly similar to what we went through.
His treat. =)
After the movie, i didnt say anitin. He just put his hand around me and said the above.
Hahahha... cute.

I had a BIG lolly in the movie that my tongue went sore...and guess got cuts here and there wif all the lickin. =(

But aniwaes, He was supposed to go home for terawih.
But he said he just felt lyk chillin out wif me summore.
and soooo...we went to Baybeats!!! yep!!!
Just me n him (n later sum parts wif Farid) chillin out and listenin to awesome music from the many bands. wich include the sounds of Sour Grapes, Jebediah and Transition.
SWEEEEEEEEEET i tell ya.
so yeah..i was really savourin the moment!

ouh Dids! i wish u were really there to enjoy wif me.
Darn!

He was tired. Eyes wif irritation n he has got work today.
Thus, i didnt expect him to send me.
So we went our separate ways at City Hall mrt.

N we totally forgot his sweater.
i swear its never intentional.

he said " ...tu sweater u can smel b4 u slp k.hehe..wooo."
and "... U cn wear my sweater if u want tau.i dun mind."

Weeeeeeeeee..oooh wait. am i readin too much into this?
Shoot.

But i did smell...it just really2 smell like him......weeeeeeeee.
but i have to stop. it wun get u aniwer el. he's not ready. so yeah...*haiz*
just stop it!

"in other stories"... haha..pick it up fr sum blog cant rmbr.

its the first day of Ramadhan.
I feel diff this year. really.
i wanna make good full use of this month.
insya'allah.

"I'm sory cudnt send u bck hm..but hey im very glad dat we met today..r u ok? i had a great time chilin out wif u jznw tau."

laters..!

nura el
F-Grade bummer


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