in my heart, there is no place i rather be

goin dutch

Sunday, August 31, 2008

funny how a guy ask a gal out and she is expected to pay for her share.
maybe i'm takin things for granted.
but well, since she has no money, might as well rot at home.
as always.

sunday's not happenin at all.

*sigh*

Just came home from BayBeats tho didnt get to really chill and listen to the live bands. =(
Mai is not into all this. but she was sweeeet enuff to ride all the way there from JP after havin our favourite Ban Mian there. Thanks Mai!!!I'm glad u like the souvenirs!

i wish Dids was not sick n do not need to go JB for kenduri so that she n me can just chill.
I miss u babe!

Az can only meet me at night just now and yeah. plan was not possible sp didnt meet her.
I'm sorry babe. When u text me, i was bz. so read n put aside. so didnt rmbr to text u after that.
Hehhe..annoyin me.

I met him there. *sigh*
I just duno how to feel. Mixed feelings.
Feelings for him is still strong tho. Shit.
I know its impossible btw us.
Who am i in his life ryte? Gosh.
I'm just a plain Jane. *sigh*
Wif gorgeous bestie beside me, i'm nothin. =(

I dun even think we're meetin later (sunday).
told ya i wudnt count on that happenin. =(
so yeah...

gonna sleep on it now...
nytes.

Hopefully i dun have tuition later.
Its like i'm studyin for the exams n worryin bout them more than her.
*sigh*

I miss you.

under the weather

Friday, August 29, 2008

AWWWWW...darlin DD is sick.

Runnin a temperature for a week liao.
She must be missin me alot.
ahahhaha..
Tak tahu malu Nura!
No wonder thecardiganclub is kinda quiet. Hahaha.
She'll be comin here tomoro tho for tuition.
I tot i cud meet ol the babes tomorrow but she has kenduri.
=(. So i'll be out wif Mai tomorrow... just hang out n stuphs i guess.

Az is out tonyte wif the BF.
Cant wait to find out where, what she did for the BF. ahahha.
Its soooooooo nice to be in LUURVE!!
Weeeeeeee!

Its realli been a while for me i guess.

i just remembered a funny incident at work today.
About this new trainee, a Philipino named Jess.
He's been workin wif me for a while but today we actually strike up a conversation about love.
About what he's been studyin in Psychology. He says that women can never live without men.
and i was like "watever! i dun need men." hahahha..@ least el is talkin. =)
and then i said there's no sense in love. All nonsense. and he said... just like Nura and her nonsense ey? ahhahahaha... even a newly met colleague say i'm that. WTH!!! hahahhaha..

Darn.

I did sth stooopid ytd.
Dun ask.
SHIT.

I like this thing a lot...its an installation out at the Arts Museum over at Bangkok. COOL ryte?

retirin for the nyte now...super tired.

telepathy?

Posted 4 yesterday.

I was thinkin bout him.
Tryin hard not to actually for the whole day.
But yeah. succumb to it alas. stupid me. =)

But strangely, as i was deep in thought, he texted.
He said "Tanyer skit bole? Fri sat sun eveningz kamu kerja?"
and i replied "Hmmm.. Did u get d right person?" coz its like
1. Out of a sudden.
2. Maybe he was textin Mas or sum other person
3. I tot he knew i only work mon to sat 8 to 1? hmmm
4. oh. maybe he just want the pics.

-pause-

just came hm fr meetin Syed at the void deck.
Yeah. Syed. After soooooooo long of not hearing his voice n news.
Apparently, his court case is postponed coz there is not enough evidence to convict him. Annoyin. Cant u guys see he is innocent? Just let him go please can?!! freak lah.

Ya Allah, terangkanlah hati dan fikirannya. Berilah dia kekuatan dan kesabaran untuk merempuhi segala dugaan yangEngkau ingin lontarkan kepadanya. Sesungguhnya, aku percaya dalam apa juga musibah yang Engkau beri, ada juga Rahmat disebaliknya.

I pity him a lot. I emphatise wif his condition. It has got serious. Gosh. I was sooo selfish. i cud have just be a friend with a listenin ear. He needs that a lot. I feel better knowin that at least he has shared wif sumone today rather than really2 bottlin em up. His court case...is on the....shit sth Sept. Freak lah! forget the date. Dammit. If he is convicted, he will get 4 years in. :( *sigh*
I hope that he'll get through this... insya'allah. n dun become mad. i wud already have gone insane if i was in his condition. gosh... *sigh*

-pause-

Apparently, I'm goin out wif him this Sunday before puasa or so he says...hehehe! Weeeeeee!
I'm crossin my fingers here tho... who knows he suddenly cancel on me or sth.. :(
so yeah.

I miss you.

wanna go sleep now. afternoon nap. shit. yeah. i know. but cant take it!!
ta ta!

nothin

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

We didnt chat tonyte.
Funny how chats wif u at nyte before sleepin has been like a norm for me even when its just for a week together. yeah. i've missed u yet again but i dun wanna be a bother to ur life...so didnt text u or anitin.

guess ur happily playin to tunes of Oasis on ur guitar ryte now and fallin asleep wif it.. =)

i remembered the night wer we were at Koh Pha Ngan n we chilled.
I listen, while u played.
Gosh... just soooooo amazin..

love it when u played "Now & Forever" by Richard Marx
and "Guardian Angel" by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.

i've missed you.

older posts made me smile!

I have sooooo much free tym wif nothin to do and no1 to talk to as my babes are all busy wif their life. AZ has her BF, MAI has her BF n WORK, n DIDI has her FAMILY and WORK. which explains my presence all the tym here. I do have my family tho. they have been great. but yeah. i duno wat i'm talkin about... Guy friends..all i have put aside. Not kiddin u. havent been answerin Benny's call. and when i got home there was this guy called Rudy who was like wantin to get to know me and stuphs coz he claimed sum1 send him my number thru biz card. HOW annoyin!!! who the fuck kept my number rollin?? if i get that person, he/she is sooooooo gonna get it fr me. Shithead.

I think i'm still in holiday mood.....super lazy to do anitin n get things done lor.
nooooo...this cant go on. i was talkin to Harris on msn after sayin my gdbye to him ytd. Fucklah Nura. watever man! yeah. emotic. shithead. darn!

After readin ol my older posts... i felt lighter. aint know why. i guess it made me realize the fact why i have a blog. or something. sooo hard to explain...but yeah. made me smile. hahhahaha..

i guess friends love me for my nonsensical nature and shit. able to make ppl luff, able to luff wif others and most of all able to luff at myself. HAHAHHA.. Nura is just full of Nonsense.

this emo side of me....haiz.....saper nak gi layan?! even Dids cant stand it.
Darn i'm annoyin. so i guess...the only room for my emo shit is here...u guys dun have to read lah. ok. since u have super little free time to spare. Unlike me...who can stare at this screen for the entire day. hahahha...

I'm just gonna confess things for now to make my load lighter.hahaha

1. I like Harris a lot. Period. He's different. Watever happens, happens. i aint care already.
2. Yus is back. Emotic (sounds familiar ey?). aint know why. been sayin he misses me and stuphs. feelings for him are not how they use to be. i guess it was just infatuation.
3. I have been a bad Titer to TK n TB. Sorry. :(
4. Miss my babes a lot. yeah...az,dids n mai!!!
5. i'm in debts. Darn. have to settle em.
- California fitness: 3 mths - $255
- Kama: $150
- Zul: $250
- Hp Bill: $150
6. Been ignoring my guy friends. i feel bad. but wat can i do? just dun feel like talkin to em.
so yeah. sorry aite.

And adik still owe me $220 for tuition. gosh. 1 month pay gone just like that. kapeeesh!

I have to treat TnT Breeks. hahahha...coz i made them wait the other tym. Darn. hahahha.
So yeah.

I'm gonna start plannin on wat to do for the next few weeks or months or something.

I have started to wake up early to go to work. i dun wanna be late again. so yeah.
I was early today. reach work at 8.01am. hehehe..

things to do:
1. Car license BBDC membership renew. Pass before Raya or birthday insya'allah.
Another $300 gone for two pracs n 1 test.

2. Settle money issues. i want a debt free life!! please help!

3. wat to do for Did's birthday.

4. give all souvenirs.

5. Bike license saving up.

6. Start saving up - $50 a month.

7. refrain fr noon naps!!! find sth to do...!

8. spring clean room. Paint!

9. buy dread wax! a mess lor my dreads. annoyin!

10. study POA for adik! darn. its as if i'm takin the exams!

11. to get all the above done.

so...i'll start. No bummin ard el!!nooo!!

peace. cheers. nytes.

try

bird. What's the story morning glory? says:
well do stay cheery always k

I try.

I know ur livin ur life as per normal.
Like i did when i dun really care about whether the other person likes me or not.
I know. that is what makes matters worse.. haizz..
i'm not tryin to make u feel guilty or watsoever.
But its just a fact. and i have to swallow it.

Dun worry. Its not ur fault.
I should know better.

Dun i babes?

Its soooo wonderful to have a BF Az...lucky you!

Lonely September

I'm sittin' here all by myself

just tryin' to think of something to do

Tryin' to think of something, anything

just to keep me from thinking of you

But you know it's not working out

cause you're all that's on my mind

One thought of you is all it takes

to leave the rest of the world behind

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did

And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did

And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did

And you didn't mean to love me back/but I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself

that you're not the one for me

But the more I think, the less I believe it

and the more I want you here with me

I'm quelling all the feelings i have for ya... back to El.

just ate a big fat lunch. not that i'm not fat enuff. but yah. aint care.

I just wanna make myself happy and no care in this shit called 'feelings'.

Darn i'm annoyin.

i guess shit happens. Just when i feel that i'm ready to share,

its not reciprocated. ahhahha.. karma. padan muka kau.

Darn i'm annoyin.

maybe people might say i dun have patience.

maybe they are right.

or maybe not.

But watever! hahahhahaha...

wanted to give TNT their items but decided not to.

How annoyin can i get?!!!

AARRRRGHH!!!

i cried myself to sleep. frustrated wif myself.

aniwae babes, free on Sat? Dids comin over for tuition & i got nothin on.

HOW? HOW? its been a while lor...

Annoyed

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Hey.

Feelin shitty.

Sucky.

Bored.

Pointless.

Tryin hard to be El again.

Its just hard.

Bein Nura is sooooo annoyin.

But tryin to be El again is darn annoyin too.

Cant do it.

F**k.

Lost.

Dammit.

part 3

Well, i was tellin ya bout the ferry ride to Koh Pha Ngan and the beautiful sunset didnt i? ok. i've got photos from Fad already..heehe..and yeah. Here are sum photos i took usin his cam. Btw, i forgot to mention that we took bus fr SG all the way up to Haadyai. hehe..yeah. 14 hours ride. and the crowd at the checkpoint was worse than JB customs! Annoyin!

And so.. after 2N in Koh Pha Ngan,(4got to mention i got a full oil body massage there. 1 hour for less then $10..weeeee. STEAM abis!! hahahha) we proceeded wif a ferry ride again up to Chumpon followed by a bus ride to Bangkok. Was all cool wif the angmohs again... Squeeze wif em on a boat. nice!!! was definitely another experience. DIDI wud love it. U shud have followed man! SOOOO many eye candies for you to choose fr. Tho not my cup of tea. =)

We took the as shown bus to the town. awesome!

And when we arrived at BKK, we had to search high and low for accomodation for that day. It was 5 in the morn! gosh. and alas, after goin thru the streets of Khao San wif our heavy bag, yess!! New Siam Guesthouse 1 wif shared bathroom. Cool lor. hahaha.. after wich we found accomodation elsewer wif internet at Sawasdee Welcome Inn wer we stayed for the rest of the week. Bfast or rather food, was super annoyingly cheap!! seriously. i love their pancakes!! tho i had fried rice most of the tym for lunch n dinner. lol.

so after wich...we planned itinerary for the rest of the week. Coincidentally, Thurs wif no plans as God has other plans for us.. :( sorry Harris... so yeah.. think i'll continue again tomoro or sth... SUPER BORED ryte now...

i've decided to stick to bein EL. Simpler n more carefree. There's no point in bein Nura... It sux bein Nura. :( so yeah. I'm quellin my feelings as much as i can... *sigh*

part 2

...continuation of my Thai trip.

2. Full Moon Party at Hatrin Beach, Koh Pha Ngan

Initially i wasnt hyped about the whole party thing coz i hate the clubbin scene and all. Reason why i dun club. But well, since i'm there and my main purpose of this trip is to welcome new and crazy stuphs...so might as well! Mas wasnt into the idea at all and she insisted or rather forbids me drinkin. Darn she's annoyin. Hahahha! but well, why the hell shud i listen to her? is she my mom or sth? LOL. so yeah.. drank raspberry & lychee bacardi and smirnoff mixed w redbull. shared wif Fad...WOOOO...it was all cool. The scene at the beach was unbelievable!!! i have never seen soooo many white meats at one go all my life. CRAZY i tell you.

I did a glow in the dark 'tatoo' at my lower back but i dun have a pic of it since Harris lost his cam. Awww..soory. didnt mean to rake up the past. but yeah. and then bought two glow in the dark specs..hahah...crazy. Me n Harris wore them. Fad was just super duper high wif all the drinkin and we had to take care of him tho he said he can handle himself. Yeah ryte.

We went through the crowd wif the music changin each section..techno, trance, rmb, hmmm...reggae. IT WAS COOL!!! and there were several angmohs who like hmmm..pat my head, took my glasses..and all.. it was all cool shit. fun ar!! then we went to this bar..and had mushroom shake!!! yeah. THE SHROOMS!!! cool shit as well. Harris and i shared. hehehe.. tasted like cendol. it sure did make me higher..hahahha..but well, tried to control coz Mas was there. coz if not, i would just completely knocked myself off and drink n be merry till sunrise!!

then, she had to make that Chi*** face as wat TB said. yeah. and we had to go home. at least for me n her. SHIT. and so me n Mas went home while Fad n Harris continue partyin. And the most annoyin thing was we had to get lost on the way home. We were already at the area but it was picth black. The island was not properly litted with lotsa dogs and after the taxi dropped us, yeah...we had no idea wer our bungalow was. and so, we had to call the guys home. Thankfully, Harris n Fad thought about us and didnt ignore us. thanks aite! and Sorry guys for spoilin the whole thing. :( Btw, I peed at one of the resort's pond coz i cudnt take it...heheheh.. But i was elated to see Harris that i rushed to hold his hands.. duno why. i just feel safe wif him ard i guess.and then i cudnt sleep due to the high level of alcohol. :) so yeah...

Short entry for Thailand Trip.

Monday, August 25, 2008

Weeeee! i'm done with my room. almost. Hehe.. and as always, i will always be left wif many things outside and duno wer to put them. Heheheh...so just chuck one corner lor. =P

So hmmm...there's sooooo many things that i did over at Thailand. if i wanna tell u evritin..it wud really take sometym.. maybe i'll just share the highlights of the whole trip in parts.. maybe tonyte..just one part..hehehe...

Firstly, sorry to Harris, Mas and Fad (Zul) for being very late for the bus ride to Hatyai.

We almost didnt make it because of me didnt we? VERY SORRY.

But hey, we've made it through it all and i'm here sharing. So yeah. la la la...

1. KOH PHANGAN. Superbly awesome. even the ferry ride, watchin the sun sets beyond the horizon was just amazingly gorgeous. undescribable. We spent 3 days and 2 nights there and i had the urge of spendin extra 2 days there or even more...it was just...haizzz...I DUN WANNA GO HOME!!!! just lazing around in the sun..floatin on the endless clear waters of Haad Salad Beach.. Time passes very slowly when we're there. Breakfast was awesome!!!Cheap and havin it wif the superb view and the smell of the ocean breeze...simply heavenly.

Think of Jason Mraz's Life is Wonderful. Exactly.

Fad did his dreads... we made friends with several Thai people there.. Ant, Mo and Tim. Cool bunch of people, friendly and helpful as well... =) the 2nd part would be the full moon party.. tomoro aite.. =) photos from Fad since yesterday 11pm till today still uploadin... gosh..

so yeah..

*hugs*

*sigh*

Was supposed to meet TK n TB today at Queenstown as we agreed ytd but well, as always, i have to be the spoilsport of the group. I woke up pretty late after my afternoon nap and was feelin darn lerthagic lah. And lookin at the super messy state of my room, i decided that this cant go on. So yeah. I have to cancel on them. Sorry TK n TB.

Now still cleanin n filterin my clothes since there are loads of unused items. so yeah.

I'm very bored. So that explains my presence here.

After Thailand, weeeeee...there's no more list of guys to call or chat or watsoever.

Kinda lazy or sth. I duno. Niwaes, Yusni is gone outta my life after all that hype. Shithead. Nonsense. bleeargh!

Went to work in the mornin but in the end no work coz Auntie Sharon was there. =)

So went to meet Harris at ICA. Felt great to be able to meet him. =)

i have to take things slow in order for things to happen btw us.. hmmmm.. we'll c wer the wind blows i guess.

People are lovin my dreads!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.. i love it too tho my mum kept sayin rambut org mati and Orix kept tuggin at it thinkin its another of his playthings. Hahha..

so yeah.. hopefully i get to update u guys wat i did fot the 10 days in Thailand..heheeh.. laters..!

p.s. dids.. u have stories about the appreciation ey??? WEEEEEEE!!!!!cant wait. called u twice but i didnt answer. n btw AZ, hows the bf???

Back in 1 piece

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Yeah...i'm home from my getaway!!!
Superbly awesome!!

I had my sleep...n i'm goin to sleep again.

No tym to update.

I got home fr BKK at 1.30 am (sat) today.

Unpacked liao but yet to kemas...

A lot of things!!!

So hopefully tomorrow after work i get to do all that n clean my room too.

WEEEEEEE!!!!

I miss Koh Phangan.

N I miss u Harris.

One of my fav pics at Koh Phangan... Yes babes. Its the real deal.
Sentosa is ZERO compared to this beautiful baby... *sigh*

Update u guys tomorrow..nytes!

BANGKOK!!!

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

WEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WE're in Bangkok!!!!

yippee yay yay!!

We're all stinking!!!

*shared bathroom*

HAHAHHAHAHHHAHA!!!!!!

Criterias...

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

"I want my future wife to read aloud for me the Quran."

That made my heart beat very very fast.
I could barely breathe.
Even at the thought of it right now makes me hyperventilate.

This is definitely impossible.

Time to look elsewhere.
Or even stop lookin at all.

Weakness being noted truly.

I'm a dumb ass.
I'm super gullible.
I'm naive.
Step on me for all you want.
I'm a fool.

Thanks.

I'm just full of shit.
Super selenger.
Super bachin.

Yes i am.

Shit head.
Darn STOOOOOPID.

Photo uploads !!!!! NDP 08.

Monday, August 11, 2008

I duno how to uploads pic one whole straight go yet in the right places. super annoyin. i cant use the exclamation button ryte now coz Orix is partly on the keyboard.

But aniwaes, i'll try my best to keep it readable n not confusing. So here it goes.. 1st pic is the usual suspects of the group...wif the inclusion of the Vogue Mia. HEHEHEHEH... we were late for the send-off ceremony at Marina Mandarin but nonetheless..taken at City-Link, courtesy of an angmoh passerby. sooooo sweeet of him ey? Thank you stranger!

When me n Dids found out that we'll be at Libra-Gemini Room when we are there, we were like OMG! OMG! n she went...Its a sign... hahhah. just fyi, libras n geminis are a match made in heaven or so they say. ehehhe..n wat we believe (partly). LOL. So yeah...we just have to take pics... Here's two Libra gals... hehehehe.

Hmmm...lets c...next pic. This guy ryte here is soooo caring bout me.hahahha. Jadi bestfriends gituk. LOL. coz there was this one tym, as u know the STM and careless me (haizz...never change), i misplaced my phone and yeah. it went "missing" at the ballroom of Pan Pacific Hotel. Gosh. But i relent. If its lost, then ok, its not meant to be. But wif the help of many people, especially Idin, i managed to get it back. This guy here kept for me!! WEEEEEE!!

Thanks Mr Sathish!

Here's Mia and Abg Shah. The "lovebirds" of the group. I just have to include this bit in coz there's sooo much hype bout it in the group!

Mia likes Abg Shah or so we think n see fr his reactions and behavious. Abg Shah on the other hand keeps disturbing Mia and tickling him and all.. Heheeh.. But it was all for FLPJ. But yeah. Mia is a handful. Gays make good friends and bitching partner. Enuf said. =)

Look at Dids all smily2 behind her beloved C.B. Poh. Super annoying lor she!!! Well, thats our trainers w/o Fabian Ong in the pic. But i have his pic later on!! *bluek* to Didi!!

OK! Here's the full group. Minus the utmost right Uncle. Yep. This is the full clan. HAHAHAH...

We have Abg Salleh, Kak Das, Kak Dilla, Abg Juferi, Me, Idin, Abg Shah, Didi n Mia!!!

I wud like to say thank you to all of em for makin this a really x 11 wonderful, awesome NDP 08 i wun forget.. truly.

Great bunch of ppl and company!

Gosh... *sob*

Introducin the NTUC contigent. Looks as though there's lotsa ppl but truth is... Not really. SembCorp n the rest can easily eat us up!!! but still, we made it!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tho the annoyin thing was the camera crew focused on the left side way more than us!!! STOOOOPid lor. shithead. Mite as well the right side be left bare!!!! annoying!

Here's my annoyin "discipline master".

My ultimate annoyance.

HAHHAH..
this can't lah. That can't lah.
Annoyying!!!!
aniwaes...wun be seein u anytym soon..

*bluek*

Nurazilah = Problem Child.
Guess now i know wat my name means.LOL.

My Fabian Ong. Yep. Mine

30 years old.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....
still studyin. knows how to speak malay.
Plays soccer.
Been in the force for 10 years liao.
Awww...suuuuuuppper cute lah!!!!

dammit...
Adik, u sucks!
Go and embarass me with him
Annoying lah...
oooh darlin...wun be able to c u in hm clothes this frida
Dids...u betta get ur hands off him. U can only have one.
Hmmmmph!!

Here's the group just before the FINAL MARCH.

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
with the flags and all...Mia did a pole dance but dun have video of it.. darn!!

i'm gonna miss them loads lah..
Gosh.. i really feel like changing my bangkok date..so that i can go to the appreciation dinner this friday!!!
darn lah!!!!!!!!!
dammit!!!!!!!!
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz *sob*

So yeah.. here's Yusrizal. Finally. A pic to the name..hahahha..

when i c him face to face. yeah. his age shows.
well, he talks a lot. more than me.
its not good..
so yeah....

I took lots of pic wif Yus tho. hehehhe..
not revealin him just yet.

HAHAHHAH....

Hmmm...lets c..there's sooo many pics but duno wich one to put..wish i cud just upload all of em..
hahahha.. ok movin on.

This is hmmmm...the commander of the parade. if thats the correct title.

He;s a great guy!!
hahahha...

hmmm... samsuddin was it his name?
was it dids? hahahha
STM at work!
this was after the parade lor..
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

after effect of the parade. was at the Abg Juferi's family chalet. it was sooo cool. at Aranda Country Club. Great!!!

Food was annoyingly awesome.or was it because we were hungry? heheheh
well, for the 1st tym, i had gong gong. fear factor.
But was all great. Got hooked on to it wif the superb sambal kicap. wooooowwweeee!!!

There was a berita harian reporter and all..took our pics. duno whether come out or not. =) didnt check.hahahha..

Ok2...last two pics...bear wif me aite.

hehehehe..

Ok....here's him.

=)

This is the best picture of him.

He's not photogenic.

I swear!!!

But i looooove his smile...

oh. Dids say we talk alike.

WTH? hahahah...duno lah this dd. Weird.

Haizzz...just seein him smile..makes me smile lor...

=) =) =)

He was soooo shweeeeet....haizz..

aniwae dids, this is by far the best pic u take.

HHAHAHHA,..

*bluek*

awww...i miss him oreadi lor. dammit. NOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

Pic of the day... Courtesy of IDIN aka MOMO...weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..i soo like this pic lor..
hehehheehe....so yeah..thats bout all..
i'm gonna go muggin for my student's N Level POA prelim exams now. hehehh..
Nytes!