well, it has been a while since i last update.
as usual, got caught up wif work and well, sleep and all.
If there is a line that can sums up my 08, it has to be 'working my ass off'.

But funny enough, i dare to say, i did have a great, awesome, wicked 08'. Truly.
Thats because, i get to spend it alone. Well, not techincally alone in my own world.
But, well, i meant singlehood.
It has been momentous. So much haps. I don't even know wer to start on my reflection.

WARNING!!!
Babes, i guess its really gonna be a LONG entry.
Its just mainly for me to just reflect on all the things that i have covered as a single 24 year old lady. So, you don't have to read em aite.

So, i guess I'll just continue writing. Wateva that comes along in my mind, i'll jot em down. :)
Prolly, many are doing the same thing as me...reflections, resolutions and all.
Its conventional.
But wadda hell.

Say, with all the stirring haps, i had my fair share of family problems.
Even more this year (with the drama @ hm). I shall not disclosed any detailed information but just say that someone really, really close to me had tried to end his/her life twice. It was distressing. i panick. I did not know wat to do. It was torturous. I was practically bawling through the phone, giving advices that i deemed sound @ that moment through the speaker. She's still so young and she had to go through all that on her own.

I'm sorry. You don't deserve all this. But things had to happen this way. I'm glad you are strong. (or so i perceive). You never open up to me. Keep havin that bold front of yours. You were crying n crying, lost and do not know what to do. Neither do I, as i was far away. and with the neighbours all coming over plus having to see that in front of you.... I'm sorry i wasn't there with you. I'm glad you're ok. i love you.

Things are not over though. :( *sobs*

Ya Allah, kumohon padamu, tabahkan lah hati orang yang sangat kusayang ini. Berilah dia ketenangan hati dan fikiran agar dia dapat menempuhi segala apa dugaan & cabaran yang telah Kau berikan padanya. Sesungguhnya, Engkau lah yang maha kuasa dan maha penyayang. Engkaulah yang maha mengetahui. Ampunkanlah dosa2 nya Ya Allah. Sesungguhnya, dia telah sesat dengan bisikan dan godaan syaitan.

I guess i know wer i get the genes from. All this negativity in me. All this low self-confidence. All this deep thinking shit. But i want to put a stop. I do not want to lead my life 'genetically'. I can do better. I have done well for quite sometym. I guess. Until recently. Again.

I'll do better.
Next year.

I'll slap myself the next tym i think negative. Period.

But well, people can't avoid those feelings sometym right?
I mean... shit. Here i go again.

Supi says "You're great the way you are darl. How many tyms must i tell you?"
Thank you Pi.

I'm talking to Pi ryte now.
"A date happens when the guy is wooing the girl."
I consider my meeting up with you and the rest of the guys as casual meet-ups.
Coz ur not wooing me. So yeah.
Isnt it Pi? Hehehe.
Nonetheless, I love you.

I rang up A.S. ytd to clarify things. Coz it actually bothers me why this Michelle left me a link to Fidah Haron. Which after further 'investigating' is a gal that A.S. has been seeing for quite sometime. According to him, he said that they are not together. He is just hanging on to her coz apparently he says, she does not know what she wants and that he is like a booty call to her. Is that how u put it? I'm not really good in my language. And i was like..."So, u came to me coz u can't really get through her?" WTH! I seriously dun get him. Never will. Nak kata ada darah India, takder pulak. Belit punya belit. Masya'Allah. He kept saying, "Yang penting I cari U." i blabbered summore wich i cant reli rmbr.. stuphs about him not doin self-reflection and the past. about him that could have been the one and all. and i was reli tired, i put down.

He texted "no words can eva make up 4 wat ive done.. i onli hope my actions wil prove 2 u odrwise.. nite2 dear.."

am i really over him? I mean its like its been a year plus2 already. I should have gotten over him like how Mai has gotten over Wan. But, i am still confused. lil bit. but wat matters is i got Supi now. I plan to keep him for a long time. Insya'allah.

Speaking of Supi, my friends all know that i have been going out with blind dates. A whole lot of em. I mean. I am not proudlah. I take it as a learning journey. As in learning about all the diff kinds of guys that exist. Wich was one of things that, i guess, i have accomplished this year. Until I met Supi. I am kinda contented with him. He's Mr Right Now. :)

Maybe later on i shall blabber on the guys. Maybe not. Isit the ryte tym for the list to be out? Maybe. Maybe not.

I done some crazy stuphs this year. Ok. Maybe not so crazy.
Rmrbr Herbalife?
Yeah. I tot i could change my life with it. Like how Titer n Tater change theirs. Wich was dramatic. They are healthier and happier people. But then again, they are discipline people as well. I'm happy for them. Truly. But, its been a while since i last meet up with them. I really have been a bad friend to them. So occupied with my own life that i ignore this two awesome persons that has shared some of ups n downs. Sorry titer n tater. I hate myself for always doing this to you. I'm sure you both are disappointed in me. :(

I had a memorable and grand (tho embarassing) birthday celebration this year. I won't forget 2008 coz of this. NEVER. Thank you again dear Az&Aez, Didi (and bro n ikin) and Mai. Ouh and Andy as well as Prabu. Ouh..not forgettin the gorgeous Abg-i-forgot-his-name(and band) who sang the birthday song for me @ PumpRoom.

I had been the mastermind for Az, Dids & Mai's birthday surprise this year which i hoped they would deemed memoreable. But of course with the help of the rest of em. I wouldnt have manage to pull em of if not from the help of the rest of the party. I hope you guys will rmbr ur 24th bdae surprise. I appreciate this friendship. Very much. No words can really convey how much i really treasure what i have wif you babes. I pray that Allah will let me have you in my life for as long as you all live.

Thank you Didi for including me in the NDP 08'. Marching along side aunties and uncles in the NTUC contigent. It was really2 great!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean Cool! Coz i've always love taking part in NDP. I oso duno why. hahaha.. I had the cheerleading thing during JC rmbr? So yeah. N with that, i gotto know two guys, 2 Yuses. hahah. Thank you Kak Sila n Kak Dilah, Mia, Idin n shit....i forgot the rest of the Abangs' names already for making it soooooooooooo memorable!! I still have yet to upload the video i've taken. heheheh..Sorry Idin. :P

Ouh, speaking of wich, i attended a good gig this year.
Yeah. Momo and Didi's gig.
at the esplanade. alongside other aspiring performers. You guys were marvellous!!!!
Thats why i was actually looking forward to another gig from you today!!!!!!!

"i perform private show for you lah. Wahaha...:P" Dids said.
I hold on to that ar!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

Come to think of it, wow Didi.... i did quite a lot of things wif you sia this year!!
California Fitness.
Need I say more? Maybe I should.
Haizzzzzz....So much of losing all these fats that i have. So much for getting a lean body before my birthday huh?! hahaha... semangat dua minit orang kata. hahahah.. sekarang bulan-bulan burnt ajer $84. Gosh. thats why lah have to work my ass off each month. ahhahaha.. i am still wondering when am i gonna be done wif the installments. Wen ar didi?

Lemme c.... ermm..
Laughing Gas with Mai!!!
Thats a total new experience say. Its like.
"Ey amaciam...mau try laughing gas ke per?"
N well, Mustaffa plus Carpark.
Rest is well, history of 08.
But the session wif Azman was truly the best. Thanks Spasticsaurus!

oooh!!!! Thailand! Koh Pha Ngan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Full moon Party! The Beach!!!
The Shrooms! The weed!!!
Gosh!!! Yeah.. whole lot of entry on that one.
Its the highlight!!! But Alhamdulillah i got home before all the politic unrest at Bangkok started. Really man. But, I would love to go back there again. The Muay Thai, the guestroom, my dreads, the people and Shoppin at Chatuchak madness!!!
i would trade Mas wif Mai anytym man! Minus ur bimbotic moments k babe!
Thank you Harris and Zul. Missing your company guys! and ur irritating nonsense.
Harris, you owe me sth.

ok2. Mai called. Gtg bathe now!
Later2!

in case tak sempat, Happy New YEAR!!!!

HELLO 2009!!!!







"Auntie! Ice Kopi kao, KAO, satu ah!"

Yeah. Due to this, i cant freakin get any shut eye.
I guess my body system has changed.
Coffee used to make me sleepy.
But not now. I guess thats the reason why these wak2 always drink kopi.
hahahhaha!!! sorry. must be the leftover lame brain juice. haha.

Yeah. Tried to sleep since like wat? 11.30 am just now!
Was out wif Mai, Azman, Supi and Wan ytd.
Went to Marina Barrage again (minus the crankiness) to play taboo n cluedo.
We were done by say 4 plus.. n i reached home at 5 plus2.

As usual, i have to feed my 11 kids. so yeah. as u might have guessed, WORK.
at 9.45. so, have to wake up at 8! haizzzz. wat was i thinkin?
But it was great tym out.

i have been tryin to sleep. My ever so dull eyes are gawd dang exhausted!!!!
But the caffeine has proven, too much for my brain to handle.
Its all hyped and at full blast. I guess. F**k.
Mai said, soya bean helps. I drank.

Nothing happened.
Eyes still tired. and i'm goin for the soccer game later!
Singapore vs Vietnam.
So yeah.

sigh.


DAHLAH!! NAK MANDI!
rather than i peluk my bantal busyuk and nothing miraculous happen,
might as well, i shower..and go out. (tho zombie lookin)

Fuck lah. watever.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGGGGGGGGGGGH!
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO tired.


p.s. thank you darlin Supi for accompanying me just now.
I guess, each tym we talked, we accomplish sth.
Ryte?
*wink*



I'm runnin out of ideas. lemme c...lemme google on topics to blog about.
HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHH!!!

Sorry2. Private joke. hahahahahhhahha!
Sorry2. Can't help it!

And soooo..
Erm...to describe to u wat state i'm in right now wud bore u to death.
But wadda hell. Its my blog. so yeah.
I'm wif my bantal busyuk..nose-blocked, worn out.
while chattin wif Supi and readin blogs while secretly waitin fer prince charmin to sweep me off my feet.

I'm a BOOOOOOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRRRING person.
Fuck.



infatuation & fetish.





I Miss My Mum and my sis... :(
I am worried that unexpected things might happen to them.
Cause i have been readin about tragic accidents.
The Yishun couple case, as well as the doctor who was on his way back to Singapore on a night coach. Thats why every once in a while, i would call her to check on them.

Had a great tym wif the babes (Az n Mai) ytd.
They came over to my place, we fried breaded fish fingers and caught REC online!
Picture quality was darn good! and as i watch it all over again, it is still scary lah. hahahah.
Then after Az went home, Mai and me chatted n chatted n chatted... till she was toooo lazy to go home. In the end we slept bout 2.30 am... lotsa stuphs that we randomly discuss. It was cool.

Then in the mornin, as expected, Mai's mom was very bising at both of us.
ryte? hahahha.. notti Mai! U shud have done this like way, way back say!
This is the way to get ur freedom! BABE, we are freakin 25 nxt yr!!!! not 15 ya know!!!!!!!
So yeah.

Btw, i got a text fr Dids. Apparently she went to her neighbour's wedding and u might never have guessed who the groom is!!!!

make a guess.



summore...






and more....





NOPE!!!










its MR SUNIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dids say he looks good. Tapi aperlah dekni.
Malu nak amik gambar. NONSENSE!!
Baru teringin nak tahu how his bride looks like.
But Dids say jambu ar.
GOSH!!
MR SUNIL IN BAJU MELAYU!
HOT LAH SAY!



after taggin to mai ytd, i realli went into a deep2 sleep... just woke up. ahhaha..its 6.15 in the morn, on a Fri and i'm bloggin!! hahhahahha... no school! YEY!!! Holz babe!

But,
I am disturbed.
A friend of a friend (whom she knows fer 10 yrs) calls her a "witch wif a black heart."
OUCH!!!! That hurts. A LOT!!!
Wats worse is, she even sided wif another whom she barely even know.
WTH. Gosh. I truly can't imagine.
After going through rough patches together and knowin each other for that long period of time, then one day, because of a BIG MISUNDERSTANDING, she decided to call it quits. Not even botherin/willin to listen to the other party's explanation.
I dun geddit. I do not need to listen to two sides of the story to make a stand. Coz callin the other party such names is totally uncalled for. Uh ah. No no. Not cool.

So babes,
Watever happens between us in the future, and i'm talkin bout the unhealthy issues, PLEASE just remember that she should have her own reasons for doin so and the only SANE thing that the others should do is to listen and understand.
Lets appreciate these 8 years that we have and more in the comin years.
*hugs*

Good FRIDay everyone!!!!!



I am finally done wif ISWAK2.

Catchin the remainin hours of sleep before goin off to work later.

Zhi Shu!!!!!!!

CRAZY el!



"mmg i tak worth it.. but 2 noe dat ive bn shot down b4 anodr chance.. dat hurts baby." - A.S.

Aizuddin Syafiq,
This time, I am for real.
I am OVER YOU.
No more turnin back to you.
The $250 that is waaaaaaay overdue,
Forget it.
I dun think i'll ever get it.
So yeah.

I CAN NEVER TRUST YOU.
Yes. U heard me loud and clear.
Its not as if i've never given u any chance at all.
NO?
Think again.



Over You by Chris Daughtry

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house

What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of me

Well, I never saw it coming
I should've started running
A long, long time ago
And I never thought I'd doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
And now I'm picking up the pieces
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through

I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of others opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me





He's just SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOT! Help! I'm Melting!!!!



wlw...gettin a title is soooo difficult sumtyms.
but niwaes, its like everyweek i'm gonna blog bout fridays.
*sigh*
another school week. :(
i have to endure this.
shit.
ok2. gonna bathe now.

*nytes*

in other stories...

it just turns me OFF when guys call me by "U......."
Fucklah. SO mat n minah!!!!!!
Cannot take it.
So, sorry lah ey for not entertainin u (tho u are harmless).
I mean... one can just call me by: Oi, Hey, L ...anitin...to the extend of Babi..
I wudnt mine.

But NEVER EVER call me by that of the above!
Just makes me annoyed. Truly!!



WEEEEEEEEE!!!!
I'm done with the series!!!
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO shweeeet!

AZ!!
Episode 19 is sooooo.... *sigh*
Tho it is expected that they will be together in the end,
how he realised that he loves her and ran to find her..
Haiyo..! I wish those scenes can actually happen in reality. DREAM ON lah EL!
Then...the part wen he was tyrin to find a loan in his office, and then Xiang Qin bring for him dinner... and he was down..but his face immediately light up and put his head on her tummy and hug her... AWWWWWWWWWWWWWW..gosh!

Bila lah aku nak dapat prince charming aku ni?



Thank you AZ for introducin me to this entertainin series!!!

Since Supi is bz being tarzan for 3 days...
I am kept busy with the episodes...weeee
Episode 14 liao!
6 more to go!!!
I cant wait to know the ending!
This fellow soooo hot wif his locks!!
*slurp*
My fav scene..
And yeah Az, i kinda see that she looks like me in certain ways. hahahha..
The definite one would be in oblivion!

P.S. MAI..... enjoy Imesh aite.

Ouh just to make a note. I've gotten rid of my dreads totally on Friday!!!

Pics...have yet to update. heheheh

nura el
F-Grade bummer


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