I still remember the 1st time I approached you, Still remember how awkward it went and still remember the common things that we shared that made us clicked.
And a few days later, I still remember the 1st time you approached me and how easy it was to have a conversation with you as though we went all the way back. But oh wait, we actually did. Technically.
you will go, "Psst, psst" and i will go, "Wink, wink"
And after sometime, I still remember you, telling me that you saw me. In which you said "Mana aku nampak si ketot ni eh?" And I still remember myself saying, "Ok gr8. Now he's not gonna talk to me." But, it went differently. Coz i still remember you saying, "I have a thing for short girls."
And then i remembered, me, smiling. Non stop. Heh.
Later part, I remembered something bad happened in your family. I still remember you had lost a love one. I still remember how bad I was at comforting you. And I still remember how strong-willed you were, And how I was still able to make you laugh out loud in your room at night. :)
I still remember chatting with you till wee hours in the morning. Everytime we get a chance to chat. I still remember the "absence makes the heart grows fonder" feeling that we have for each other even though we did not want it to go there yet. And I still remember how we used to imagine doing things together when in actual truth, we have not even meet. I still remember very clearly, that you said, "It has been a while..." since you're like this. And i said it goes for me too.
I still remember me saying to you "Action speaks louder than words." everytime you berangan doing things with me. And after saying that to you many times, it happened. I still remember me, not believing that you actually has finally plucked up the courage to meet me. I said, "Betul ke tak betul ni?" Hahaha. I Still remember how we exchanged numbers that night and what was your last text to me. "Peluk bantal kuat2. Imagine its me." :) I still remember how peacefully i slept that particular night.
The meet up was two days away. But I still remember the endless text messaging that we had. Chatting had become a thing of the past. Heh. I still remember talking to Supi about how nervous I was to meet you that fateful night. And when I told you, you said, "Janganlah, later i nervous also." Hehe.
I still remember the first time we met. It didn't exactly go well. But it felt right. I still remember you saying, "Nevermind, you are not working. Next time you get your 1st pay, you blanja me ok." And i thought, "Is there gonna be a 2nd time?" I still remember I drove your car home, got lost, while you let me listened to Steven & The Coconut Trees. :) And how u lit that ciggie at 6am, wif the makcik n pakcik looking at you as if ur an alien. And I still remember as well, u called me to say, "El, I puasa! Tapi i hisap rokok!" Hahahha!
After that, I still remember that things between us went pretty normal. Endless texting. And I still remember the confession about how we feel for each other. But then, I still remember, u telling me, that you're not looking for a serious relationship because you have commitments and you have to fulfill your promise to your lost love one. I respected that. Truly. And i also remember you saying you do not want to leave me hanging nor hurting me. And i was ok as well. Because as long as you were around, I will be ok. But I didnt tell you that.
Then, I clearly remembered how disappointed I was that I didnt get to see you on my birthday. And then i remembered, after that, you disappeared from me bit by bit...
Untill that webcam session recently. In which, you just totally do not wish to exist in my life after that. *sigh*
