I had an instinct even before i met you.

let's stay as friends...

2010-04-18T01:26:00.002+08:00

i just need you to spend my saturdays with.
I just need to smell you even when i'm having a blocked nose.
I just need a hug from you even when you come to me all so smelly.
i just need to hold your hand when we lie down under the stars.
i just need you to listen to my whining and stories at the end of each day.
Am i asking too much?
i just need you.

grown

2010-04-08T04:29:00.001+08:00

i was browsing through ppl's profiles... basically ppl from my past, ppl who were part of my life back then. and i realised how much we all have grown.. the last time i remembered, we were reciting the Brownie promise together, we were still crying to Vitamin C's Graduation and also how we promised to stay friends forever... and here we are, today, at 26. some r strangers, some r still friends, some r married, and some, have even become parents... but looking at where i am right now.................................
i'm just farking disappointed with myself.

God, help me.

1st

2010-04-07T04:31:00.002+08:00

today, he sent me home. right to my doorstep. :) *on cloud nine*

i just can't stop smiling! :)

we had fun chilling at our usual spot... it was really, really nice... weeeeeeeeeee!
i gave him a back massage coz he was really exhausted from his 2 shifts... he loved my massage.. weeee!
he then took my sweater and rested for a bit... he made funny noises when he slept. :) no snoring though. heh.
he asked me to play wif his hair... ;) his curly hair... :) he likes it.. :)
he took my hands and smelled them to sleep... i like...! :)
we bite each other... :) he kept pinching my cheeks... :)
the closeness... i miss this kinda closeness.. :)

when he stopped at my block, he put his bike on mainstand... i was already grinning to myself. i didnt let him see though... :) he walked 1st, i followed behind. threw our rubbish and then we went up d lift... he gave me my phone and ic.. n i still couldn't stop smiling!!! and then he went out 1st. i can tell that he is not used to it but he is trying... :) soooooo
cute lah! he walked quite fast... :)then when we reach at my doorstep, it was awkward. i said thank you.. he didn't hear it though.. and then he asked wers my keys.. i said ada.. still smiling.. :) and then as i reach for my keys, i said bye. he said bye too.. :) i should have gave him a thank you hug.. :) i miss him already... :)

you

2010-04-04T23:29:00.003+08:00

why is it that you don't say nice things to me?
why is it that you don't hug me when i'm cold?
why is it that you don't walk me up right to my doorstep when u send me home?
why is it that we don't have intellectual conversations?
why is it that all u talk about is this n that song/band?
why is it that you don't show me that you care?
why is it that you say those things? do u mean them?
why is it that you don't feel me?
why is it that you're different?
why is it that sometimes i feel ur world champion?
why is it that you're always the one telling the stories?
why is it that i feel my stories bore you?
why is it that you don't ask about my friends the way i ask about them?
why is it that i don't understand u?
why is it that you can't listen to me?
why is it that u can't be d simplest bit normal?
why is it that i like you?

i've no fucking idea.

worry

2010-03-30T03:39:00.002+08:00

i think that i've gotten a lot from my mom. genetically, i think too much about things... a whole darn lot. gah. i worry that i won't suit him. worry i dun deserve him... worry wat his bestfriends might think of me. gah. we had a drama moment just now and then i really felt that and i told him as well that if he was with me right now, and he give me a big hug and tell me that everything's gonna be fine, i would be just fine, like feeling blessed. :) so we are good. time to let go... time to push myself up. :)

i texted ki telling him that i don't want anything to change between us coz i hate it... and he said don't worry coz he's not letting me off that easily.. :) and i texted him that i heart him. its the same way that i hv for supi... n he said that makes the 2 of us. i then jokingly said he never said i heart u too and he texted me this, "That's because I heart you like crazy, and forever more babe.. :) " oh mine ki............. :)

dang

2010-03-30T00:26:00.000+08:00

the more i talk to him, the more 'wronger' this feels. arrrrggghhh!!

mixed emotions

2010-03-30T00:09:00.002+08:00

i have told ki about him. somehow, one way or another, when i reached home, and when i talked to him, i really truly felt that i have made the wrong choice. this feeling sux. truly. it feels like i have just let go of some1 who is capable of loving me all his heart, for someone that i don't even know whether i can have a future with. what am i blinded by? i am always fucking confused. i felt the immediate difference just now... like he does not sit next to me, like he does not give that eye contact with me, like he smokes a whole lot just now.. what have i done? i have made the wrong choice. its too late to turn back now isnt it? tsk. el, what is el? as much as i'm feeling like this, i guess he deserve better...

confirm

2010-03-27T14:14:00.004+08:00

i went up to ask my mom today, "umi, macammane umi tahu yg abahlah yg umi nak kahwin?" and she said,"sebab abah tak balik rumah. dia sanggup nak hantar umi balik, amik umi balik, dia tinggal kat rumah makcik dia." i was like... "huh???" lost say!!! so i guess its d sacrifice that my dad made dat moved her. isit???? *lost* and then i asked her, "Camner calon2 yg Nur bawak balik? ok? mana satu Ma suka?" she laughed out loud!!! "Mana satu yang kau sukalah. yang rasa boleh jaga kau, yang baik, yang solat, yang kau kenal hati perut dia..." hmmmm... thats a toughie. hahah. zaki fits d bill. totally. but part 'nur suka' tu ada payau sikit. :)

i was chillin wif ki ytd and he made his confession. i saw it coming and was hoping that he wudnt say. but he did. he went "i think i should start dating." and i was like, "yeah man! u shud!" and then he said, "i wanna date you out." hahahaha! he knew wat i felt about him right from the start. a great friend. but he was glad that he got it off his chest. :) i hope that my friendship wif ki n wan stays really long... coz it really feels as though i've known them like forever. they felt the same way too... :) after he send me home.. he texted me...
"Good night el..I am home..today as usual was fffaaannttaassttiicc..btw u said u wanted to know with whom I had that sparks, it is you..have a good rest..""

ki poured out to me ytd as well... he told me about his late mom. she passed away when he was 11... so he only has some memories of her. he don't even have a picture of her. it all got burnt by a jealous aunty. he has not been celebrating raya for the past 17 years and the only baju kurung he has is a yellow one which belonged to his dad once. he did good deeds for his mom, and he continued to study just because of a promise that he has made with his mom before she passed on. it was an emotional night ytd... He even loves it when a friend's mother nagged at him coz thats the closest he can have to a mom's love nagging. :)

i thank Allah for still keepin my mom with me... i thank Allah for waking me up to her constant nagging... at least when i hear her naggings early in the morning, i know that i still have her in my life. i thank Allah for the problems that he has given my family. at least i know i still have them to squabble with... :)

to a very close friend that has lost many of her love ones last year, lets just pray and give "Al fateha" to them constantly. at least they are with Him now... somewhere safer than here... i believe.

i'm heading out later... i hope everything goes smoothly... :)

different

2010-03-24T21:43:00.000+08:00

i've always dream that someday, i can blog about how i met the love of my life, my soulmate, my other half, the missing jigsaw piece... or watever you label it. always imagine it would be a dreamy2 thing... very fairytale like that ppl will go awwwww when i relate the story. how i met him, how he was different, how he has sweaty palms, places we went to and stuph like that. i always tot that sumday, i mite be able to share my love adventure like how az or a fellow blogger i know did. somehow, i hate to admit this... all that is sooooo far fetched. the closest would be just me and my chick flicks... wishing everyday that movies can be reality someday. tsk. hopeful. too hopeful. tsk. i've met n known a lot of guys and i'm not here to brag about it. its just that with all the many guys that i've gone out with... its only a handful that i tot i cud give it a shot. but unfortunately, they don't feel the same way. question is... would u wanna love or be loved or in love? i am very sure everyone wants to be in love. awww... how surreal that would be. in love. guy meets gal. they fall in love. why is it that
i can't have that? 26 this year. i'm farkin old. with my not-so-nice past, will i ever be in love???

farking shit

2010-03-15T00:17:00.003+08:00

i told a stranger my deepest secrets.
and it fucked up.
fucking hell.
where's the "Never talk to strangers." sign again???

awesome.
fucking awesome!

friends like us...

2010-03-12T03:30:00.002+08:00

this episode never fail to make me LOL!

7 March

2010-03-11T03:10:00.003+08:00

Niza had her daughter's cukur rambut session... and it has been AGES since i last saw them (T.Brie & family)!!! They kinda mock me. Hahahah.. but it's all in good fun. I have missed my Godson, Mimi, growing up. He don't even remember me. Sigh. Wat have I done. Shucks!
:(

Mas treated me to Alice in Wonderland. Me, bummer.. no cents to my name. Tsk!

I'm sick and tired already sitting at home. an F-Grade BUMMER! Tsk!

nas

2010-03-11T02:15:00.003+08:00

the weekends of Feb was constantly spent with Nas. JB, West Coast, Sports School, Jurong Hill, Sentosa... It was awesome and all the verbal jousting, crapping and stuph. He totally get my jokes like u gals do... and he's really nice. He met my nenek and my mom as well when he drove us to Geylang. great fellow. He admitted he sorta like me. I tot he was pulling my leg lah! coz he's not the kinda guy who wants to get married and stuph so i tot we purely love spending time with each other. Which i know we do lah! But, with the feelings, it sorta like make the friendship lil bit diff lah. So i told him d truth and stuph... and so we are spending less time. *sigh*

zaki n wan

2010-03-11T02:08:00.002+08:00

I 've been hanging out a lot wif Ki & Wan lately...
It has been awesome. :)
I have a strong weird feeling that Ki wants to woo me or sth...
I do not know how to tell him not to though. How???
He's awesome lah. Very funny and spontaneous. but.... the feeling is just not there...
I am really waitin for the day that i will find HIM and the feeling is just mutually perfect.

Where are u?

it hurts...

2010-03-09T16:44:00.002+08:00

I just read He's just not into you. like finally!
And i really truly understood why he left me hanging.
Coz he's just not into me.
Stoopid me. So stoopid. All the wait... for wat again?
I ought to bang my head on the wall man!
Hahhahhaha!

And this just came in:

El, im sorry for everything.. El, u are perfect. its jus me el. i have to go without u. im goin to be a husband in july el. i dont noe y i cant say it to u while i still can last time. i jus dont want u to hurt. but i noe, it hurts more for u not to hear it from me my myself. im sorry el... i hope u can forgive me el..

He's sooooo not into me. From last time.
Wat was i thinking?
Hahahah..

And me being perfect? Stop it eh. Bullshit!

it has been years...

2010-03-02T20:30:00.002+08:00

Dad is not home yet.

But i know, the war will start soon.

Again.

When will it end?

nenek love

2010-02-21T03:21:00.005+08:00

I know that I'll lose my nenek soon. Day by day...slowly she's fading away.
She has started to show signs of dementia.
I'm scared. I have expected that all these will happen some day...
But,
expecting is one thing...
Going through it...is a completely diff thing.
Umi has been telling me that she has been repeating the same questions w/o realising.
Like just now, she has asked Umi what time they will be back from JB 4 times...
I'm scared. I have not been praying... :(
What if Allah takes her away suddenly?
What if we are all not prepared for it?
What if I'm not ard? What if I don't get to spend time with her fully?
What if?
Ever since nenek stayed with us, so many problems arise back in Jurong. She's here, continuously feeling restless about the problems... always thinking about it... I don't know how to lessen her burden...
She is sleeping soundly in the room. But, when i talk to her later in the morning, she will tell me she has difficulty sleeping. :(
I still remember that time when her watch stopped working. She told me and Along to change the battery and told us that it is a gift from Arwah atok... such a precious watch.... We found out later from the watchsmith that its not the battery... it is the watch. We felt for her and we did not know how to tell it to her.. Her only memory of Atok cannot be used now......:( With Allah's miracle, when she put it back on her wrist, it started moving again. I guess Allah is telling us.. her time will come soon.. HE is giving us signs...
Dear Allah, I love her... truly.

No matter how many times you want me to push you to the toilet, I am willing.
No matter how many times you want me to cook you sayur, I am willing.
No matter how many times you want me to wrap your leg b4 you bathe, I am willing.
No matter how many times you want me to change channel for you, I am willing.
No matter how many times you want me to lift your leg up the bed, I am willing.
No matter how many times you need my company to go for your dressing, I am willing.
No matter how many times you ask me questions, repeatedly, I am willing to answer you.
No matter how many times you want me to dial your children's number for you, i am willing.
No matter how many times you say thank you to me, I'll say........

Tak payah cakap thank youlah nek.....to remind you that it is my duty to take care of you.

Sorry that sometimes i didnt get to wake up in the mornin to send you to the bathroom.
Sorry that sometimes i didnt get to accomapny you watch tv.
Sorry that sometimes i didnt hear you calling for me.
Sorry that sometimes i do not heed your advice.
Sorry that sometimes I don't have anything to talk to you about.

But, please know that I love you...
I really do...

I love you nenek...

19

2010-02-19T02:32:00.003+08:00

19 is a good number do u think? hahha..
i have been a full time F-grade bummer for 19 days!

everyday i am in FB, Tagged, Imesh and Messenger w/o fail.
It was as if i can't go through a day w/o a daily dosage of each of the above.
But today, seriously am super sick and tired of it.
Nothing good comes out of it. Heh. :)

My heart, i have come to realised, as stupidly as this may sound,
has been locked up. For Is.
I know he doesnt give a fuck about me. But matters of the heart is truly complicated.
:)

It will be a new day later! :)

GO EL! GO! :)

too

2010-02-02T20:59:00.001+08:00

I'm darn freaking lazy to do anything these days...!
All i do is eat, sleep, eat, sleep!!!!

EL!!!!!!Wake up your idea gal!!!!

do you know...

2010-01-20T22:12:00.002+08:00

....that soooooo much has happened but I still freaking miss you, and I don't know why?

Thinking of You

2009-12-31T09:32:00.001+08:00

Thinking Of You-Katy Perry

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center

How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in I was disgusted with myself
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned

Oh I think you should know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

again?

2009-12-28T21:11:00.002+08:00

I met Azila and asked how she know her. She said, her sister's friend. And randomly she said, "Pasal matair baru dia eh? Roughly?" and i said.. yeah but didnt elaborate. Next day, he texted me on facebook telling me he's in Singapore. And i was like "So?" The last time he was back here, I saw him at Swensens, Causeway Point. Just now, I went there again, went up the escalator past Swensens, I was reminded of him. When I took the escalator up to the 4th floor, and looked down, there HE WAS again. This time with her. Coincidence? I don't think so. What is God trying to tell me? aaargh!

Az was cute. She texted me telling me she saw Fareed at Marina with a gal. :) He's not my boyfriend aniwae. So it doesnt affect me at all. :) Niwaes, he did tell me he's going there. So yeah.

I still miss Merah.....

ouh just wanna jot down.. on Saturday, Fareed had arranged to meet me at Starbucks Borders after my Avatar (which was sooooo worth it!). I spotted him and waved. Then Dd said, "I think I saw one of your other dates." and i was like looking around... "Pestman." she breathed out. I saw him. He was hiding from me. Huh? Shouldnt it be the other way round? hahaha..!

annoyed

2009-12-25T20:16:00.001+08:00

My bro took off with my Olympus.

He hasnt been home since Tuesday.

Fuck.

alexandra

2009-12-23T22:58:00.002+08:00

Nenek fell when going down the stairs and there was no one to hold on to her. That worsened her condition. *sigh* I've been visiting her for two days now: During my lunch and after work just to keep her company. I know she's lonely...Thank God, my workplace is soooo near the hospital.

Ya Allah,sembuhkanlah nenekku dan terangilah hati dan fikirannya...

There are soooo many nurses around... but this time, there was no iritated feeling watsoever. Funny enough. *think A.S*

Sorry Azman... can't make it for Avatar!

I've been talking to Fareed every morning and night now. Let's just hope he does not have any feelings for me... I did feel a tinch of jealousy ytd tho when he was talking about Siti Rahayu. hmmmmm...

Dd kena wabak aboi bawak balik dari kampung. RABAK SAY MATA!!!! Pity her... hehehhee

nytes ppl.

surprise + wer was the number 9?

2009-12-19T23:18:00.003+08:00

Didi gave me a surprise today at the Esplanade...
IDIN. Yes! Him! I was so ELATED!!! He hugged me and lift me off the ground for a bit before putting me down. That annoying BRAT. Missed him... I can't wait to hang out with him n Acu before he flies off again on the 16th Jan. eergh! Well aniwaes, Dd had an awesome gig just now! coolness! Wooooohooooo!!!!

so about the Thursday... Basically, me n Fareed saw the wrong bus number: 61 instead of 961. Which left me stranded in Kallang with no train to go home... I did not want to waste my money on the expensive cab fare. Fareed was sooooooooooooooo nice to accompanied me till 6am to catch my first bus home. We had walked from Tiong Bahru to Clarke Quay. And when i didnt get to go home, we walked from Bedok to Tampines.. we had fun. heheh..

i just got home fr my cuz's engagement... and as expected, the usual question,
"When is your turn?" AIYO!!!!!!

all pics will be uploaded on FB. Its very annoying to upload em here.. hehe..

arrrrrghh!

2009-12-19T23:14:00.001+08:00

I MISS YOU MERAH!

a note

2009-12-19T12:21:00.001+08:00

gotto blog about Thursday. Dang!

dark n disappointed

2009-12-17T11:46:00.002+08:00

Just woke up with nothing to eat at home. Yes. I'm home already. Dang. Such a short trip. hehehe.. I wished i could have stayed longer in Bangkok. arrrrrgh! We all wished we could. Including the Boy. :) But it was all cool. We had to run to catch the flight to Bangkok. Last call. GAGAGGA.

our first breakfast in bangkok. Great customer service! not like the banglas! arrrgh. From the deco, we derive that this 'coffeeshop' was handed down from one generation to the next and they go all out to provide us with the same reputable hospitality. Food was great too! Despite the miscommunication regardin the pork ham issue, we enjoyed our bfast.

River cruise to the floating market...
along the way, stopped by for mini mock up muay thai and traditional thai dance...
Then again, decided to go for the tuk2 scam. Hahaha.. brought us to sum Wats.

trip to the Grand Palace which i missed last time i went there...

after which we shopped like MAD PEOPLE in Chatuchak!!! They guys were done in no time while me, mai n didi could not stop!!! HAHAHHA!!! Next day, headed to Siam Discovery Centre thinking that i could get a cheap lomo cam there. But it was darn ex. Shudnt have gone there. Shud have spent my money in Khao San instead! arrrrrgh!!!

Our flight to Phuket was delayed. So we took our own time to eat dinner wif the free coupons that Bangkok Airways gave us... Mai went for her dosage of nicotine after that while we waited, chilling. We didnt realise though that the announcement was saying..."Last call for Abdul Ghani." Well i did actually but the rest said.."Nolah... Abu Dhabi." WTH!! HAHAH! So guess wat? RAN AGAIN!! When we were in the flight, EVERYONE was giving us the killer eyes. HAHAHH!!

Phuket was crappy except for the beach. The waves were HUGE!!! Karon Beach was better than Patong because the water is clearer...errr.. I don't know why my sentence construction this morning is crappy as well... but yeah. There were sooooooo many Indians doing their 'belit' business over there. They are an ANNOYING bunch. And the stuffs that they sell there are just repetitive. so boring. so not Khao San. arrrrrgh! They mark up the price by like 250% of the original. Dang!!! So, to you peeps who wants to go Phuket... forget bout shopping. just get dark on the beach. That's the only way you'll enjoy Phuket.

Karon Beach. Sipping mixed fruit juice....aaaah..

after getting dark for lil bit, we head up to Patong... hoping for great cheap shopping. But instead we got, CHEAT shopping. arrrrgh!

Last time enjoying the big waves... Dd thoroughly enjoyed it... I was SCARED.....

We had to send Dd to the airport coz her flight is earlier than us... But we ended up spending many2 hours there... coz the weather was unbelievably freaking HOT outside...

Charlie's Angel.. :P

MAIN TAITI SAMPAI MATI!

The Super friendly, humorous and awesome JetStar Cabin Crew, Norazman... Will never forget him. They should have more people like him on board...

Read the signs.. HAHAHAHH!

Home sweet home...

gd company, great wkend, awesome hair?

2009-12-07T21:26:00.012+08:00

My weekend this time round started on Friday. At last! and it was kinda weird coz I spent it wif the small girl. She texted saying, "Alah boring seh, dah balik ni. Ure not gg out ah?" and when i called.. SHE was saying, "....it's a Friday night!" and i was like thinking really ar this gal? no curfew? not sleepy meh? dah jadi happening ar dia! hahahh! So i grabbed the chance and went out with her. Met her at the shopping centre that is open 24/7. Yes! Mustaffa! Wer else???
Hahaha! We were shopping for make-up and vcds and other stuphs. And we were searching high and low for Did's eyeliner (which she does not use even on the next day! arrrgh!!!).. then i had a person's body on me from the back. I look up.. I felt that the person was leaning on me closely, his/her body weight fully on me,while trying to get to some body spray at the top shelf. I didnt think of it as anything. Truly. Coz i truly thought only a lady wud do that. after sometime, (quite sometime) then i realised... it was an Indian guy!!! AAAAAARGGGGGHHHH!!! The worst part was, I didnt know how to react...and Dd wasnt aware of the situation. *sigh*

We then got out of the chaotic place and chilled at the cafe, as above, after which i gave Didi a surprise by treating her to Newmoon @ Marina. My 2nd time. :) and i was making sure this time round, she doesnt sleep on me. ish!! hahahah!! NRs home after that. Fareed accompanied me home on the phone...

Saturday came, and met small girl again! hahah.. supposed to meet her in the morning. But I cudnt wake up! haha.. She was soooooo sweet lah to wait for me and accoyed me to Along's place to get my hair coloured. again. yes. Caught "Mengaku Rasul" on vcd. SUPER ANNOYING but GOOD show. should watch. Supposed to go to Flea Market at Timbre but guessed she was too tired to follow me ard. We were heading down to Coffee Club @ Rendezvous when Idin called me. ARRRGHHHH!!! I MISS THAT ANNOYING GUY!!! I was tearing up lah talking to him. He's like a brother that i never had. sigh.... He called me because he was worried about my twit: I do not need a boyfriend. Period. Telling me that i'm gorgeous lah.. wat lah.. and advising me about my studies. Thanks dude! Love ya lots.

Acu was wearing dress... soooooooooo sweeeeet!!!!

Then, Fareed came... chatted for abit, finish up the food and sent Acu to her bus stop. She was very tired that she was talking nonsense! HAHAHAHH!!!

Me and Fareed do not know what to do so we walk aimlessly... from Rendezvous to Fort Canning to Park Mall, to Istana Park to Orchard Central...

Until he brought me to a place... oooh sooooo nice!!! He said, "Do not ask. Just follow." Ooooh..i love surprises! hahhaha.... this was the journey there... some nice photos i took. nice i think. Heh.

and when i saw where he has brought me.... i was soooooo delighted!!!This was the first time sum1 brought me to a place i don't know existed! Super cool!!

it was fine.. chattin away and such.... after which we headed home...
Next day was awesome...first time attending wedding at Fort Canning...Abg Wan's sister's wedding. I'll let pictures do the talking.

Then singgah a colleague's (i do not know her) doa selamat for her baby.

Despite the Minah hair... I had a great weekend.

I'll embrace my Minah-hood. WTH?

New Moon

2009-12-03T22:23:00.005+08:00

Caught it just now with annoying sis. Advanced bdae pressie for her...*terkopak duit aku* heheheh.
But it was worth it. Call me immature. Call me childish. Call me a sucker for love stories. Call me anything! I don't care! The love between Bella and Edward beats the love between Romeo and Juliet. I LOVE IT... And Jacob was freaking, freaking HOT! It was his eyes, it was his body, no.... it was his teeth. White and with small fangs at the side. sooooo annoyingly hard to resist! errrrghhhh!!

I would pay to watch it all over again, anytime!

"Leaving you was the hardest thing I've ever done in 100 years."

Why can't I be like Bella? To have someone that i love and be loved in return? and have a guy best friend who loves me unconditionally?
Why?

:)

2009-12-02T19:44:00.002+08:00

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Lindungi aku dari segala fitnah

Kau tempatku meminta
Kau beriku bahagia
Jadikan aku selamanya
Hamba-Mu yang slalu bertakwa

Ampuniku ya Allah
Yang sering melupakan-Mu
Saat Kau limpahkan karunia-Mu
Dalam sunyi aku bersujud

merah

2009-12-01T21:26:00.006+08:00

I still remember the 1st time I approached you,
Still remember how awkward it went and still remember the common things that we shared that made us clicked.

And a few days later,
I still remember the 1st time you approached me and how easy it was to have a conversation with you as though we went all the way back. But oh wait, we actually did. Technically.

you will go, "Psst, psst"
and i will go, "Wink, wink"

And after sometime,
I still remember you, telling me that you saw me.
In which you said "Mana aku nampak si ketot ni eh?"
And I still remember myself saying, "Ok gr8. Now he's not gonna talk to me."
But, it went differently.
Coz i still remember you saying,
"I have a thing for short girls."

And then i remembered, me, smiling. Non stop. Heh.

Later part,
I remembered something bad happened in your family.
I still remember you had lost a love one.
I still remember how bad I was at comforting you.
And I still remember how strong-willed you were,
And how I was still able to make you laugh out loud in your room at night. :)

I still remember chatting with you till wee hours in the morning.
Everytime we get a chance to chat.
I still remember the "absence makes the heart grows fonder" feeling that we have for each other even though we did not want it to go there yet.
And I still remember how we used to imagine doing things together when in actual truth, we have not even meet.
I still remember very clearly, that you said, "It has been a while..." since you're like this. And i said it goes for me too.

I still remember me saying to you "Action speaks louder than words." everytime you berangan doing things with me.
And after saying that to you many times, it happened.
I still remember me, not believing that you actually has finally plucked up the courage to meet me. I said, "Betul ke tak betul ni?" Hahaha.
I Still remember how we exchanged numbers that night and what was your last text to me. "Peluk bantal kuat2. Imagine its me." :) I still remember how peacefully i slept that particular night.

The meet up was two days away. But I still remember the endless text messaging that we had. Chatting had become a thing of the past. Heh.
I still remember talking to Supi about how nervous I was to meet you that fateful night. And when I told you, you said, "Janganlah, later i nervous also." Hehe.

I still remember the first time we met. It didn't exactly go well. But it felt right. I still remember you saying, "Nevermind, you are not working. Next time you get your 1st pay, you blanja me ok." And i thought, "Is there gonna be a 2nd time?" I still remember I drove your car home, got lost, while you let me listened to Steven & The Coconut Trees. :) And how u lit that ciggie at 6am, wif the makcik n pakcik looking at you as if ur an alien. And I still remember as well, u called me to say, "El, I puasa! Tapi i hisap rokok!" Hahahha!

After that, I still remember that things between us went pretty normal. Endless texting. And I still remember the confession about how we feel for each other. But then, I still remember, u telling me, that you're not looking for a serious relationship because you have commitments and you have to fulfill your promise to your lost love one. I respected that. Truly. And i also remember you saying you do not want to leave me hanging nor hurting me. And i was ok as well. Because as long as you were around, I will be ok. But I didnt tell you that.

Then, I clearly remembered how disappointed I was that I didnt get to see you on my birthday. And then i remembered, after that, you disappeared from me bit by bit...

Untill that webcam session recently.
In which, you just totally do not wish to exist in my life after that.
*sigh*

Toodles my dear Merah...

AFGAN

2009-11-28T23:48:00.003+08:00

I was wif Mia, Kama, Didi and Kak Das the whole day!!! It was awesome!!! We were at Grand Copthorne Hotel, having high tea with Afgan!!! weeeeeeeee!!!!! It was sooooo worth it. Call me a groupie. I don't care! Hehehhe... was soooo excited takin pics with all the celebrities.

But the downside was... i was in my ugliest best. sheesh. dyed my hair ytd thinkin i cud get rid of my minah highlights. but then, it turned out worst!!! i lost all the highlights! :( so i had to wear a cap n my big specky to cover up. :( AFGAN was sooooooooooooooooooooooooo CUTE!!! He has killer dimples!!!! haiyo... n his voice.. melting!!!! i was sooooooooooo jealous of the girl that got to kiss him and the other one who got to sing wif him on stage!!

Afgan's hands were very, very soft!!! and his eyes...awwwww... aiyo! heheh..

arrrgh

2009-11-27T23:06:00.002+08:00

i duno where else i can vent this out...
i MISS HIM A LOT.
I know you babes must be sick n tired of this phrase from me...
I'm sorry. I just can't help it. really.

AAARGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!

why do i miss him so much?
I also have no reason for it...
I'm like "pungguk rindukan bulan" or rather shiok sendiri.
sigh... Merah..

tomorrow catchin Afgan in action!!!
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!
duno wat to wear tho. dang!

pening

2009-11-26T21:21:00.003+08:00

My mum cooked Sup Tulang for the 1st time.
Its quite gd... not bad for a first timer. Tak pedas tho. heh.
I ate bout 4... and i'm like soooooooooo pening now lah.
Nak muntah also got. Ish.
Too much. Now i know how Mai feels. :)

i sent a friend's request.
I've never done this b4.
and true enuf, as expected, it was rejected.
I know wer i stand.

D'Masiv - Merindukanmu

Saat aku tertawa diatas semua
Saat aku menangisi kesedihanku

Aku ingin engkau selalu ada
Aku ingin engkau aku kenang

Selama aku masih bisa bernafas
Masih sanggup berjalan kukan slalu memujamu
Meski ku tak tahu lagi engkau ada dimana
Dengarkanlah aku kumerindukanmu

Saat aku mencoba merubah segalanya
Saat aku meratapi kekalahanku
Aku ingin engkau selalu ada
Aku ingin engkau aku kenang

ago

2009-11-26T11:00:00.002+08:00

2 1/2 months ago, i said i want to delete him out of my life.

i realised that...

i can't.

impossible.

reason, truthfully, only God knows.

but today, it has just dawn on me that...

has..

has...

DELETED ME

out of his life.

just, where are you?

challenges

2009-11-25T17:56:00.002+08:00

Banyak betul dugaan berpuasa di luar bulan Ramadhan ini.
Setan2 berkeliaran.
Dari segi fisikal dan mental, 'mereka' mencucukku agar aku batalkan puasa sunnah ini. Alhamdulillah... aku dapat bertahan sampai jam ini.

Lagi satu jam... dapat aku menikmati Nasi Goreng Kampung ku.
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

Merah, dimanakah engkau?

duno

2009-11-23T23:04:00.005+08:00

Hey... i actually do not know wat to blog about. A normal Monday, except i got a free ride to work. hehehe.. the advantage of working in a transportation company. :)

I had my Koka rice noodles today. Spicy Marinara for breakfast and Laksa for lunch.
Brought brownies to work as well... in which the only person who appreciated them at work was In. Either that or he was plainly hungry. Hehehe..

Fareed had them for breakfast as mentioned... topped wif chocolate sauce & m&ms!!! hahahah! Coolness. He said just now i should try puttin marshmellows in em next time. nice!! weeee!! And i told him we should do up a picnic next time.. like Pushing Daisies. Hehehe..

Mum said to me ytd that maybe I should Puasa Sunat Arafah.
And so i will.

Puasa hari ‘Arafah ialah puasa sunat pada hari kesembilan Dzulhijjah yang disunatkan bagi mereka yang tidak melakukan ibadah haji. Kelebihan berpuasa pada hari ini ialah ia dapat menghapuskan dosa-dosa setahun yang telah lalu dan dosa setahun yang akan datang, sebagaimana hadith yang telah diriwayatkan daripada Abu Qatadah al-Anshari ra:

Dan Rasulullah SAW ditanya tentang berpuasa di hari ‘Arafah. Maka Baginda bersabda: “Ia menebus dosa setahun yang telah lalu dan setahun yang akan datang.” (Hadith Riwayat Imam Muslim)

So babes... If u have the luxury to perform this... I guess you should... Insya'Allah.

Turning in now.. have to wake up for sahur later. :)

Missing you.

rafi n fareed

2009-11-22T22:16:00.007+08:00

I was over at Dids' place over the weekend. was great being BUSOK at sum1 else's place. Thats really sth new lah! ahahh!!! then at night caught A Christmas Carol with Dd, Kak Das, Ca Ca, Awim n Rafi.. Rafi has been very annoying tho this weekend. Got angry at me and stuph.
Besides than his temper and his crudeness, he's a nice guy in general and yesterday he has admitted that he likes me already. I dun feel the same way tho. I'm not ready for commitments. Or rather.. my heart belongs to someone else.. :) Here's him.

In other stories.... I just got home from having dinner wif Fareed at Jurong Point.
We both love exploring thus we dun take the usual way around places.

That landed me n him at this place (which i duno wer) wer people were fishing and 'sourcin' for kupang. Was cool. A diff side of Singapore i've never seen before. :)

A very tall and good looking guy. He can be a model and an airsteward.

He's quiet tho. A libra by nature.. so i'm not really myself ard him.

Maybe, i'm just not use to being ard good looking guys. Heh.

Or i just duno him that well.. Only a month. I guess it takes time.

Or.. i just can't get along well with libra guys. Heh.

He's gonna start work at Adidas tomorrow. hahaha!

after the following photo, there was this uncle (who clear the plates) said.. and pointed to the sign behind him. hahahah! NO PHOTOGRAPHY allowed in Banquet!! NONSENSE!!!!

He tried the brownie i baked....said it was nice. Heh.. his bfast for tomorrow. hahah!

He had to send the car back to his sis place.. so we ended it early, at 10.

I've went out wif two guys in a week.
But all i can think about is you.
Where are you? I hope Mak n you are always safe n happy.

I'm guessing these facts.. Maybe they are true.. or maybe you'll say I think too much. You have deleted all your photos in ur acct, leaving one only. That picture also.. ppl would not know its u. I guess its because i put up your photo here.. thats why. You're just very angry at me for not askin ur permission watsoever to publish ur photo. I'm sorry aite... I've been saying sorry so many times. aint know why tho..

missing u still...

yey

2009-11-21T12:13:00.003+08:00

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!

I got new blogskin!!! weeeeee!!!

Thanks Cha n Achu!!!!

I had a great evening yesterday with the ndp abang2 n paman2 and small girl and kak Das over at Mia's place...Eat and talk n stuphs. Paman Salleh was busy wanting to matchmake me wif his collegaue, Sulaiman. STOP IT NESS eh. And Dd plus Sis are not helping at all! sheeesh!!

Didnt go home...am here at small girl's place... buchuk n bachin nism personified.

Rafi was being SUPER ANNOYING ytd.... Scolded and got angry wif me.
Please ehh...he's not even my boyfriend.

"Feeling2 lah tu konon." Mia aka Tok Moh wud say. heh.

ok2.. ttyl...

i really need the beach.

2009-11-20T13:52:00.003+08:00

Jason Mraz's Life is Wonderful just brought me back to Koh Pha Ngan...

La la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful

awwww... i'm looking forward for my vacation....

ytd.. i received an email.. i have a new follower on Tweet.
U'll never guess who/wat it is..

It is actually PhanganTv!!! wat are the odds??
Its a sign...................... hehe.

well aniwaes.. i had a great lunch just now. Awesome Mee Kuah..
Thanks Along! Gonna meet the small girl again later for dinner at Mia's.
Weeeeeeeeeeeeee!! I just love the ndp mates!

I've been talkin to Fareed everynight now. The fat boy. Heheh..
Yan has been M.I.A.ing. aint know why. Thats why i say guys come n go in my life.. so yeah.

2012

2009-11-20T00:07:00.001+08:00

Caught it wif Didi n Mai just now.
Was a great 3 hours.
I'm tired now... can't blog much.
next time.. tomoro maybe.

:)

redang

2009-11-19T11:17:00.002+08:00

i was walking to work this morning and was kinda late but still took my time to walk, enjoying the day as it is...and then Jason Mraz & Colbie Cailat's Lucky came up on my MP3. That took me waaaay back to Redang Island wen me, Dd & Idin (not sure about Mai tho) kept singing n singing the song. aaaaahh..... so serene..

Do u hear me, I'm talking to you,
Across the water, across the deep, blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, Baby I'm trying..

awwww.... I miss Redang's crystal clear blue water..
The night where all of us just lay under the blanket of stars...
The evening where me and Idin drank "Arak ini mengandungi 3% Alkohol" hahhaha..
And were not satisfied and we got summore booze.. Then, Mai n me got high on laughing gas..
Didi got high on her icecream.. hahaha!! and i got seriously high... :)
Point is, I miss the beach... I can't wait to get to Phuket!!!!

I called him last night although i know that he won't pick up.
Psycho. I know.

Big boss not around for 3 days. Yippediii yippediii DOOO!!!

I'm readin the book called "Don't be Sad".
Its a self-help book. Truly need one..
There are some gd points in it. Really. Will share wif u in time to come..

Meetin Mai (maybe Dids too) later in the evening! weeeeeee!!!

Rafi has been annoying and weird at the same time. Wanted to meet me again yesterday.
He wants to meet me everyday apparently!!! I think. ish.

Btw, Rafi was the guy who asked for my number on Sunday mornin and met my mom on the same day..SUPER BRAVE but at the same time SUPER ANNOYING. But nice guy lah. has a temper though...

ok2.. back to work..

I NEED A NEW BLOGSKIN!!!!!!!!!!

aiya

2009-11-18T22:11:00.003+08:00

Sheesh! Gotto change my blogskin again coz apparently the image used has been removed!!!!! so annoying. i do not know how to do this. Mai... will u? hehehhe....

I miss him like crazy again. *sigh*

Saw his profile... married? and he deleted all his friends?
Was he angry coz i posted his pic up?
*sigh* BIG MISTAKE El... BIG MISTAKE.

If ur reading this, by any chance... I'm sorry.

so near yet so far...

2009-11-17T15:19:00.003+08:00

I miss him... We finally get to chat. After soooooooooo long.
He is like chipsmore. Sekejap ada, sekejap takda.
And there is nothing i can do about it. I do not want to force people to do things out of their own free will. So i can only pray, hope and wait. We wanted to meet but he said it wudnt be nice coz i'm workin the next day. So we decided to webcam. Coz he wanted to show me his janggut. Hahhaa.. I was excited!
And we did... and chatted till 3am! It was like the old days wer we enjoy teasing each other, sharing, and just talk about anitin that comes up. There was one point or many times actually in the chat that we didnt say anitin... and just look at each other. and then we sighed. :) we do miss each other but that is the furthest we cud go. Virtual hugs, virtual kiss. haha.
Knowing me, i know that wasnt enuf. I want the real person in front of me. So i decided to give it a shot (which i know 100% he wun respond) just to c whether i cud 'activate' (AES jacket and helmet..hahaha!) him. and just like the birthday, no news of him at all. But i still smile to myself... i duno why.

in other stories.. i've signed up for MDIS. I want to make this work. Truly. Insya'Allah...

Indra. cute.

2009-11-15T15:28:00.003+08:00

creative bugger. nicely done. called him a narcissist. i guess that woke him up or sth. u know how direct i can be sumtyms. hahahah!!

fareed. cute.

2009-11-15T15:22:00.002+08:00

He drew me this. CUTE RYTE? hahahahah!!! i know its not as good as Mr Art Teacher draw.. but its cute enuff for me. ahahhahha!

expected

2009-11-15T13:01:00.001+08:00

as expected...he's like any other typical MAT.
tsk tsk.
He asked me out today...
Its not gonna be easy for him.
I'm not ur average minah ok.
I'm a hybrid minah. Heh.

finally

2009-11-15T04:16:00.002+08:00

Just got home from watching 'My girlfriend is an Agent'. A good show!!! Az, u shud see this. a nice one. But.. apparently, i was laughing alone lah.. coz Dd was sleepin!! sheesh!!!!

We went to catch the stooopid soccer match at the stadium.
Singapore vs Thailand. Stoopidity content, super explicit. sheesh! Dun wanna talk about it. Partly, referee KAYU!!! 2ndly, Singapore Team... please!!!! Go train summore man! *sigh*
I still remember thoses days of watching great Singapore matches wif my Dad... days where Fandi, Abbas Saad, Alistair Edwards, Zulkarnaen, Malik Awab, Abdul Malik, David Lee, Rafi Ali, Zakaria Awang, Saswadimata Dasuki, Jang Jung, Aide and who else ar... hmm.. yeah... u get the picture. That was awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! nowadays, our soccer guys just want to be in the spotlight. *sigh*

After that, Mai went to meet Yunos.. and Dids n me didnt wanna go home.. so we randomly decided town to catch a movie so at least, we have bus to get home. THANKS to NRs! hehee..
Movies were fully packed...so we cant say no to the gal servin us. SO, we randomly decide, or rather i decide (sorry dd) lets catch the 12 oclock show. hahaha. it was only 10.30.
WE WERE VERY BORED. But, the last hour b4 12 went well.. we talked about family, our plans 5 years down the road and stuph. At least i have sth to work towards now. Thanks Dd!!!! Love ya a whole lot! and thanks again for saving me when i was stranded in Bali. REALLY owe u BIG TIME.

Earlier part of the day, Me, Mai n my family went to Sungei Buloh Wetland Reserve to just take a stroll.. Was all great. I'll upload sum pics later into this entry. I hate Chevrolet cars. I'll never get one of those. super duper annoyin!!! signals and reverse gear all in 'special' place. oh. not to mention, the lever for the car boot. tsk tsk.

i was walkin home.. stoning, textin Fareed, and I heard sum1 did that kinda Mat2 sound make when they call minahs to me. so i cudnt be bothered. till.. this guy just came up to me and asked wers the petrol kiosk. i kindly tell him.. and we chatted for a bit. and............

HE ASKED FOR MY NUMBER.

Hahahhah!!! yeah. Finally.

But i wudnt count on it lah. As much as i want a guy to do that, n i got my wish, come to think of it, if he is THAT brave, he can get any gal's number he want. so yeah. wouldnt count on it.

Nytes people. or rather.. GOOD MORNING!

random

2009-11-12T22:10:00.002+08:00

Typical day at work.. nothin much cept for the 1st day menses. Sucky.

And my work requires me to go up and down the stairs to retrieve files... gosh...!

I'm sooooo stressed out bout our accomodation at Phuket.

I have been on it for days.

and even just now.. try to work it out using 3 brains.

but it didnt happen when u have 3 exhausted brains. *sigh*

we'll just have to wait for this weekend.

Insya'Allah everything will be settled.

I am gettin comfortable wif the peeps at work.

In, Abg Wan and Aisyah.

They are converting me to full time DRO.

I'm still considering coz i wanna take up my degree next year.

so, we'll c how it goes.

I miss Supi but i can't call him. He's just.... how to put it. oh nvm.

I miss Merah but i don't wanna call him.

n i feel that i have been irritating Dd a lot lately. am i didi??

oh wait.. since when have i not been irritating?

heheeh...

i know... u love me. LOL.

wat is it??? GOtto get get. Gotto get get get get....!

AHAHHAHAHHA.. Nonsense!

I read Rafli's wall.

"my star". who's the lucky gal?

when will i be in love again?

again

2009-11-10T23:05:00.002+08:00

I dreamt of him last nyte.
it was so real....

did i tell u that i had a scary dream the other night as well?
this i have to jot down.

I dreamt Malaikat Maut came and told me my journey ends here.
I was lost and shocked.
this part is absurd tho. i plead wif him for another day on Earth.
he relented.
I told my parents and cried seeking their forgiveness.
and i remembered that i was thinkin this in the dream..
"No wonder i do not have any direction for my future. Truth is, I dun even have one."
I didnt get to meet my friends.. only distant relative. and then i woke up.

when is my turn? will i get to meet my mum and hug her and taste her cookin before it ends? will i get to call her OMMA? Will i get to tell my dad that i love him a lot even though i dun show it? will i get to seek their forgiveness? will i get to bully Dd? will i get to bite Mai? will i get to make Az luff wif my quirks? will i get to be at their marriage? will i get to smell my sister's busyokness again? will i get to even tell my Bro to assume his position as d oldest to my sis?

will i?

burnt

2009-11-08T18:13:00.007+08:00

OK... here's the deal. Me, Mai n Azman caught an R21 movie, Humpday where as usual, i was asked for my IC. Nothing new there. :) haha! Movie was olryte tho there were certain dry parts where Mai constantly doze off. Hahhaa.

Done.. Chilled n go crazy wif hippidy hoppidy..

videos courtesy of Azman who never fail to entertain our nonsense. (thanks spastic!)

Then, went back to Seah Im Carpark where Mai parked her bike..

n Voila!!!! My helmet is gone!!!! and the metal plates that were supposed to go together wif the helmet is still hot... meaning... the theft just took place. Wat was worse.. Mai's part of the seat got burnt as well!!! SUPER ANNOYING aint it??

Guess wat time it happened? freakin 5am in the morning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*sigh*

so, these two gals, super lost... sat at Seah Im Food Centre, had a cuppa Teh Tarik, tried to make sense of everything and tried to let the facts sink in.......

we were just lost. being super tired, we were really just talking cock..and laughed at the slightest things... till I spot this HUGE BLACK flying thing .... and I got scared. and WE got scared that we grabbed watever that was on the table and proceeded back to square 1.

laughed again at the now-missing-1-helmet-bike... one rode home... the other... took the train home..

*sigh*

again

2009-11-07T12:43:00.002+08:00

Its been really, really, really a while since i update.
no time?
neh... thats not the real reason.
i guess i have been spendin whole lot of time in social networking sites like tagged, facebook and such. and more to chattin in msn too. i dun think any1 wud even bother to read this aniwae. but thats not the point, el.

the point is, i'm supposed to record events of my life sumwer so that when i'm like freakin old, i can re read these entries n go.. "oh yah.. i did this.." "ouh?? we went here?" "gosh. i'm so emo." things like that. but i haven been doin it. darn. n that talk about this space? Hah. semangat dua minit. coz i had a temp job. so yeah.

ok2... i'll do an update.
had a game night session at DeCoders' Cafe ytd wif usual crowd... Az, Dd (n awim), Mai n Azman.
was all cool till these SUPER ANNOYING kids started..."UGLEEE UGLEEEE UGLEEEE!!!!!!!!!' wif their high-pitched tones. GAWD they're super annoying!!!!!!! we played a number of games.. including Pandamonium, which i totally sucked!!! EEEEEARRRRRGHHH!! and which Didi happily laughed at me. sheeeesh! i'm gonna get u sumday. but money was not worth it. say.. $100 bucks for 3 hours gaming? damn. sorry babes.. the guy serving us, Matthew was great tho.

so for this weekend.. we'll c how it goes.. i'll update. wif pics. i promise.
to myself. i know..sounds lame. but yeah.
for memory sake.
weeee!!!

cheerios n have a great weekend ppl!

truly

2009-10-24T00:58:00.002+08:00

will u just turn and take a good look at me?

2009-10-19T21:06:00.002+08:00

And i saw u...

I cudnt believe my eyes.

Ur here in Singapore.

Sadly, u didnt even recognize me.

Wif two pretty gals for company... who wud even take a 2nd look at me.

i want my very own fairytale too...

2009-10-09T22:50:00.002+08:00

have you ever visit a stranger's blog and read his/her entries from the very beginning?

well i did.

It was magical. It was true. It was sincere.... It's just like reading a romance novel.. except that its non-fiction. Facts. Real life events. But, its like a fairytale...

http://likefairytale.blogspot.com/

I'm envious. Super envious.
I'm really, really envious....

If u read it from the beginning, u'll get me.

Bless u both...

When will mine begin?

crap

2009-09-18T09:38:00.001+08:00

Many people feel that the trademark or watsoever u call it on the pics is nonsense.
:(

*sigh*

he said...

2009-09-17T22:59:00.004+08:00

Hmmm... El, its really hard to say... ok, we chat, we sms, we meet, n i see u, ur beautiful..u have nice personality, a gd heart and u seem perfect. But el, i don't want to jump to serious relationshio at da moment. And i don't want to keep u hanging. And i don't noe if ur interested in me. N if u are, i'm scared i will disappoint u. U understand?

i didnt reply him...so he said..
El, i don't know if i've said the right thing...

after not replyin him for quite sumtym...

El....

and i replied:
I wud b lyin if i say i'm not lookin 4 a serious r.ship. I understand wer ur comin fr. But r u by any chance d least interested in me? (buat muka tebal)

and then he said:
Yes el, i like u.. El, u pretty sey el.. Bedek ke i tak suka..

that wasnt d answer i was lookin for.. so i said..
Wat? U like me because i'm pretty? when in the first place, i'm not even pretty.

he said:
Haahah!! No la el.. Not like dat. i like u 4 wat u are lah. Pretty is a bonus. Hmm.. El, i think ah, i ugly sey. Skinny bone look. Y u like me?

being me..
Who say i like u? Hehhehe..

p.s. I'm used to guys taking me as a "steppin stone" in their love life. WATS NEW? ryte p?

busyuk!

2009-09-17T22:47:00.001+08:00

GERAM.

-

2009-09-17T18:27:00.003+08:00

one direction

jealous

2009-09-16T17:01:00.005+08:00

i also saw that they had "watermarked" their photos...
ermm...to so called reserved their rights.

So i tried.

What do you think?

intrigued, envy, intimidated

2009-09-16T16:40:00.002+08:00

I was browsing through many2 links of photoblogs of awesome photographers...

n i realised...

Damn my shots are crap..!

They are all equipped with the diff DSLRs and lenses.

Me? I'm wif my semi-dslr. Dang!
Nonetheless, i am grateful with what i have.
Lemme make do with my Olymp and try my best to get gd shots.

I want a fisheye camera!!!

tis sux

2009-09-14T12:42:00.000+08:00

I'm not really sure wat happened here... its all mixed up!!! Somebody please help me!!!! even my hotmail page is in this manner.. HELP!!!!

I just browsed through my older posts. It really helps having a blog. Seriously. It lets me take a quick peek back into the past bout what i have done and all.. and gives me a different feeling each time i do it. This time.., it was all the photos that i've taken the time to put up and relate stories bout the day. And then i realised that i have not been doing it. I know you babes will say... "Tahu pun. Amik gambar tapi tak upload2." Hehehhe...

Since i'm a professional bummer now, i have loads of time to do this ryte? hahha!!!
I will. As soon as any of u can figure out why sum of my pages are like the above....!!!
Azman? any idea???

So from today...

WATCH THIS SPACE.

no need to confess

2009-09-11T12:53:00.000+08:00

I'm wasting my time babes.
So i'm deleting him outta my life.

aspiring

2009-09-11T11:29:00.000+08:00

got 3 new links for me to kepo myself away now that i'm a full time bummer.
Maybe i should really start to learn my camera functions...
My photos are very pixelated the last tym i use it.
And its true that my english is getting worse each day.
Too much of talking chinese wif my china colleagues.
Darn.

Yes Babes, i need the British Council thing ya'll have been talkin about.
HAHHAHAH!

Talentime

2009-09-11T00:13:00.003+08:00

I just love Allahyarham Yasmin Ahmad movies..........!!!

Angel,
I have a dream of you I can't defined
You've been on my mind
Don't go
I feel lost, without you by my side

Lost and on my own
Yeah I'm falling for an angel
Angel
Your brightest star is shining next to mine
Every night and day
You know
Stars exploded then they fade away
Then they fade away
Yeah I'm falling for an angel
Yeah I'm falling for an angel

Would you please be my baby
Come by and I lay you down
I'm loving when you say I love you too

Won't you please be my honey
I'm sorry that I let you down
Your eyes are breaking my heart in two
Break my heart in two

Angel
May the one above us keep you safe
For the rest of day
If he knows
How I love the smile all on your face
When you here to stay

:)

2009-09-08T01:41:00.002+08:00

jagohmerah says:
kalau tak rindu tak chat sampai pagi oiii

jagohmerah says:
hahahaha
dah.......
peluk bantal busuk tu... think of me....

el says:
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

jagohmerah says:
peluk kuat2
i feel

AGAIN I SAY.. U HAVE TO BE IN MY SHOES TO FEEL IT.

done

2009-09-07T19:34:00.000+08:00

"Why do u want to resign?"

Coz i don't see myself doing this in the next month or even the next week.

"So wat are u going to do?"

Sit at home and help my mom make kuih raya.
hehe.

OK BABES... I DID IT.
Wednesday will be my last day.
Alhamdulillah...

decided

2009-09-06T15:55:00.000+08:00

i've talked to my mum.
And she says...

"Tell ur boss you want to resign."

I pray that everything will go smoothly for me Insya'Allah.

confused and lost still

2009-09-06T11:05:00.000+08:00

Met up with Idin, Didi and Mai ytd evening for buka as well as a chill out session after that. Idin is goin away to London for 3 years today for his studies and i do not get to send him off. He made me soooo guilty yesterday that I can't look him in the eyes... Work commitments shit. 3-11 shift tonight. and his flight is at 9pm. *sigh*

SORRY ADIK.

And they were talking about their plans for the future.
All of them.
Even from Azlina, who wasn't even around ytd.
And there i was, still thinking what am I going to do?

Idin's plan after studies is to work in an MNC, or even find a job in the Mddle East.
Mai is going to join the Police force and get a position inside that has to do with her Degree in Maths.
Didi is going to switch to full-time teaching instead of becoming an Allied Educator.
The same goes for Az.

My current position as a Junior Housekeeper.....
In the company, there is little chance of my pay going up.
And me climbing up the corporate ladder? Fat chance!
I've got no motivation to come to work in the 1st place. T
he Room Attendants(many) do not have any confidence in me...coz i'm just this small girl in their eyes.

I have to STOP WHINING!!!!!!
And start taking action!
But i just do not know where to start.
I did browse any available jobs for me on the net as well as the newspaper.
But how to go for interviews when i'm still having this full time job?
I don't have the time.
That is why i want to sit at home so that i can look for a proper job and go for interviews and all. There is a risk of not finding a job as what they say but I believe kalau ader my rezeki, Insya'Allah ada..

my merah.. hehe.. mcm paham!

2009-09-04T00:11:00.003+08:00

Jagohmerah says:
i oso keep waiting for u to be online...

Jagohmerah says:
evryday kalau bole nak chat
nasib jer takde

Jagohmerah says:
lebih kan rindu la

Jagohmerah says:
i memang nak miss u, pasal i tak nak buat keje.

I know what you're thinking babes... Melayu corniness.
But wadda hell....
U've got to be in my shoes to feel it. :)

Alhamdulillah

2009-09-03T22:11:00.000+08:00

I am really, really syukur for everything that He has been giving me and has given me, especially in this holy month of Ramadhan.

For Umi's health and for the peacefulness in the house.
I thank YOU, Allah.

in other minor stories,
i took a risk.
Told him I've missed him.
And as expected, he didnt reply.
Heh. I'm immuned to rejections.
Nothing new there.
So yeah.

Been meeting Mai a lot and discussing about our future.
*sigh*
My future is really bleak.
But i do know that whatever i'm doing, its not wat i wanna do for the rest of my life.
I love talking to people, interacting and all...
and Mai said that I'm definitely customer oriented.
So she said why dun i just try any customer service job.
AAARGHH! i duno.
I feel like just quiting my job, sit at home and make kuihs!
At least i get to spend quality time wif Umi and also learn the art of kuih-making. Heh!

In the mean time... check rooms ajer lah EL........

Isit?

2009-08-30T23:20:00.000+08:00

Can i say i miss you?

Am i even allowed to?

Isit even possible?

confused, lost, clueless

2009-08-25T07:16:00.000+08:00

I've been working for almost 3 months now with the department at the same hotel. I have learnt a whole lot of things there. Truly. With the help from Mrs Ong, Jasmine, Dominic, Zuoling, Linyu, Miss Chin, Mr Spencer and even from non-ranking staffs there (RAs). But i find myself dragging myself to work. I hate that. Really. Unlike those times when i was working part time @ the hotel, or even when i was working with Coffee Bean, I dun drag myself to work. I enjoy going to work. I CAN go to work EVERYDAY. You babes should know this phrase: Biasalah, nak kasi makan anak bini pat rumah. HEH!

I am happy with the people there. But not with what i am doing.
I dun think this is the job for me.
I duno what i should do.

Dear babes.. Gd morn. It sux being me.. I'm not really with my full tym job. All of u hv stable jobs n hv a gr8 future.. While me? I do not know wat i want, do not know we i'' b 5 yrs from now.. or even d next yr. *sigh* i dun mean to bother ur with my nonsense tis morning but i reli need sum1 to talk to..

DD: Gd morning to u too. Hey look, dun feel so down. I'm very sure u r not gonna be stuck doing the same job. U are smart ok, and u will do great in life. Trust me. Even i am still doing some soul searching. We are pretty clueless ourselves. But i know we got each other's back and we'll find what we r looking for one day..

AZ: Babe, there r always pros and cons to a job.. it is a matter of u being satisfied with ur job. Like me, i hated all my office jobs n tt teaching is more suited 4 me. Sure there r times when i do wonder what i'm doing in teaching but i realise tt i dun drag my feet to work.. if u r sure u are nt happy with ur current job, go out n look for another one. there is nothing wrong with it, if ur sure u want to be in hospitality, take this as a stepping stone to a better job in e future.

ermm..

2009-08-11T00:30:00.004+08:00

Sorry Dd, Kak Das, Paman Salleh, Paman Juferi and Abg Shah.. hehehhe.. For posting this two pics only. hehehhe.. Later off day, i bukak facebook account ok.Then you all can grab the photos k.. hehehehhe..

I just can't help it.
weeeeeeeeee!!!

smart

2009-07-28T21:13:00.002+08:00

"Adik, can you cook for me Omelette Cheese pls?"

"Can... That'll be $1"

"I dun have money ey."

"OK2. 50cents."

My Sis, the young entrepeneur. Heh.
Her omelette is just sooooooooo nice lah!

Work is exhausting.
Wats new?

get out of my life

2009-07-15T21:11:00.000+08:00

Once again, too naive.
Ish El.

DALINA DAUD

2009-07-11T18:04:00.006+08:00

THANK YOU BABE SOOOOOOOOO MUCH. IF NOT FOR YOU, I WOULD NOT BE HERE BLOGGING THIS. I OWE U ONE, BIG TIME!!!!

Surabaya was great, catchin up wif those two annoyin brothers-from-a-diff-mother.

BALI was indescribable. Thank you A.S.

And, again Dd, THANK YOU.

sayonara

2009-07-02T08:35:00.002+08:00

to everyone reading this... i wish you all well.
with a painful hole in my gums,
i'm going away for a while...
I doa that the H1N1 doesnt catches on me or YOU.

I'll be back.
Insya'Allah.

taste

2009-06-21T18:27:00.001+08:00

My flu is darn bad today dat i can't taste anything.
AT ALL!!!!
From my favourite pretzels to the fried chocolate mars.
*sigh*

crooked smile

2009-06-20T07:32:00.003+08:00

Awwwww....i especially love his smile.
Senyum senget sebelah.
Damn he just made my day!

lelah

2009-06-19T12:00:00.002+08:00

My body is very, very lelah.
I am on two days mc.
I guess the new working hours and job scope have sent a shock to my body.
I fell sick. :(
I duno whether i'm able to march tomorrow or not.
:(

seratus harijadi

2009-06-18T11:15:00.002+08:00

I wudn't mind spending 100 birthdays wif him....

my small annoying sis forced me to do this!

2009-06-16T22:02:00.002+08:00

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Soursoup Syrup
2. Last phone call: Kak Rohana advising me on work.
3. Last text message:bestie mai telling me a fucking bitch driver hit her bike fr d back.
4. Last song you listened to:Bau - Anggun
5. Last time you cried:Can't rmbr.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: Yeah. Lyk 3 times!
7. Been cheated on: Lyk duh! Explains my singlehoodness
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Yep. Yus.
9. Lost someone special: I miss my Atok.
10. Been depressed: Duh!! refer to No. 7
11. Been drunk and threw up: Not yet. Peed a whole lot tho!!!

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Green
13. White
14. Pink

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: Yesss! Lotsa guy friends. You should have known this!
16. Fallen out of love: Erm... Is Supi considered one?
17. Laughed until you cried: Totally. Wats luffin gas for again? HAHAHAH!!!
18. Met someone who changed you: Yup. In fact i take bits n pieces fr ppl to make ME a beta sum1.
19. Found out who your true friends were: definitely.
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yeah. Politics at work. Wats new?
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: I dun kiss. I bite!
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Wait! Wat list are you talking about?
23. How many kids do you want to have: 11!!
24. Do you have any pets: Yes my dear orix. (my sis wrote this)
25. Do you want to change your name: Done. Nura El.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Refer to last year's blog entry. 15/10/08
27. What time did you wake up today: pls! 5.45 am ok!!!
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: SNORING LIKE A PIG!!
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: BALI!!!!!!
30. Last time you saw your Mother: 10 mins ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Do well in JC and went to overseas Uni (deg in Hospitality Mgt) and then get a freaking high post in the industry w/o even have to go for torturous training!
32. What are you listening to right now: My annoying sis LAUGHING. Heh.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom : Huh? Aper ckp????
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: I need my sleep. Wen is this gonna be OVER?
35. Most visited webpage: refer to web address in this window.
36. Whats your real name: Ouh u know!
37. Nicknames: HUH?????? pls lah! tulis biodata primary school ke???
38. Relationship Status: rfr 37
39. Zodiac sign: rfr 37
40. Male or female: rfr 37
41. Elementary: Huh????
42. Middle School?: Huh???
43. High school/college?: Huh???
44. Hair colour: BLOND wif white streaks.
45. Long or short: rfr to pics
46. Height: Too Short.
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Too old for this man! Is this gonna be over soon?
48.What do you like about yourself?: refer to blog add PLEASE.
49. Piercings: huh?
50.Tattoos: yeah. A marilyn Monroe on my left back. (yeah ryte)
51. Righty or lefty?: leafy.

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery : huh?
53. First piercing: baby2
54. First best friend(s): Nuraisyah Bte Amdan & Nurhidayah Shariff
55. First sport you joined: HOCKEY!!!!
56. First vacation: can't remember.
57. First boyf?: a guy called Fairuz. (we called him Big Head - small body)
58. First pair of trainers: i dun train. (act dumb)

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating: why do u need to know???
60. Drinking: rfr 59
61. I'm about to: SMACK my sister for makin me do THIS!!!!!!!!
62. Listening to: her whining.
63. Waiting for: THIS TO END!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I CANNOT TAKE THIS ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!
NO MORE. Can;t be bothered. NYTES!\

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YOUR FUTURE :64. Want kids?: duh.65. Get Married : of coz66.Career : Wedding PlannerWHICH IS BETTER :67. Lips or eyes: eyes.68. Hugs or kisses: Kisses69. Shorter or taller: taller.70. Older or Younger: Younger71. Romantic or spontaneous: romantic.73. Sensitive or loud: Both74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship75. Trouble maker or hesitant: IdkHAVE YOU EVER :76. Kissed a stranger: Noo!!77. Drank hard liquor: nope.78. Lost glasses/contacts: glasses.79. Sex on first date: still a virgin!!80. Broken someone's heart: yup sorry..82. Been arrested: nope.83. Turned someone down: yup84. Cried when someone died: Only once weird85. Fallen for a friend?: Yup..someone I'm not supposed to fall in love wifDO YOU BELIEVE IN:86. Yourself: sometimes87. Miracles: yup88. Love at first sight:Yes89. Heaven: obviously.90. Santa Claus: ....91. Kiss on the first date: yeap.92. Angels: yeah.ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: Nvr95. Did you sing today? Yep96. Ever cheated on somebody? Nope97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? Last year,i miss my fwends.98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: should hv not go to Woodgrove Sec99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: yeah.100. Posting this as 100 truths?: .....5 LUCKY PEOPLE!1)KAKAK 2)Fatin 3)Puspa!! 4)Yana 5)Anyone!!

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WLW!!!!!!!! i wasted my freaking 1/2 hour to DO THIS!

kak Das - Spotted!!!

2009-06-16T19:14:00.002+08:00

exhausted

2009-06-16T19:01:00.002+08:00

My first tip came in the form of RM2.
Hahaha.
Alhamdulillah.

Work is extremely exhausting.
God help me.

I want the adidas watch please.........................................................

1 week

2009-06-15T19:15:00.003+08:00

Ppl say i look like auntie2 in the chambermaid uniform.
I say, "I'm the cutest maid around!"

HAHAHHA!!
Tak tahu malu.
Perasan giler!
HAHAHHA!!

Its been a torturous 1 week at the hotel.
Started wif THOUROUGH cleaning for the VIP rooms
and today, cleaning of 16 room's bathrooms!!
Seriously, it is TORTUROUS.
Again, i have to emphasize, the next time u check in to a 4*/5* hotel,
Never ever, EVER, underestimate the person cleaning ur room.

Speakin of the bathroom, the highlight must be the toilet bowl in room number (dammit! I can;t disclose this info) The guest had the cheek to seal it by covering the seat.
And guess who had to open it?
*SHIT* n I mean LITERALLY SHIT!!!!!
A thick layer of black shit the size of ur palm (I'm not kidding) just above the surface of the water of the bowl. n wats more annoying was that, it was on the outer part. Meaning, the guest shits facing the wall. AIYO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ouh. did i mention it was fucking DRY??
*SIGH* I managed to scrape it with techniques you wun wanna hear about.
I used his toothbrush. (That, I'm kidding my friend. Heh!)

That pretty much sums up the first week.
I wonder wats next.

"RONA! RONA!" this China supervisor calls me.
"BORA, BORA." another aunty calls me.

Its NURA!!!! Or just call me freaking letter L!!!!!
GOSH!

Another abusing of substance happened yesterday. CRAZY!
As always with the usual suspects.
Brain damage alert.
Seesha was great tho.
:)

hmmm....

2009-06-10T22:45:00.002+08:00

what is she really trying to say ey?
really dun get it.

"Minahs generally blog in English, which is pretty strange, considering that most don’t really speak English in real life. "
-quoted fr : http://minahspeak.livejournal.com/7740.html#cutid1

Hmmmmmmmm....

truthfully, not really amused by wat she blogs.
wats so funny?

i say, "Nytes people."

no place like home

2009-06-08T19:47:00.024+08:00

I'm home..! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
Spending time wif Dids and her family was awesome.
I get to ride the train! KTM! Like finally!
But it was super hot. And adding to that was the different people that board the train at different stops along the way, leading to overcrowding. Travelling time was longer as well. But when we finally reach after about 9 hrs in the "sauna", it was all good. So many things to see. Like the peribahasa, "Bagai rusa masuk kampung"...that was exactly how i felt. Literally. Hahaha!

Sth funny happened. (you know this was coming ryte Achu?) Dd was going for the customs clearance using the thumbprint. Her palms were sweaty as always. So she tried on the machine and it did not manage to read it. So one officer saw this and told her, "Rub pat hidung."

And yes. She actually believed him!!!!!!!!
SHE FREAKING RUB HER THUMB ON HER NOSE.
SOOOOOOOO CUTE RYTE?????
But, it worked all ryte. Her thumbprint cleared after that. hahahah!

Then, Dids supposedly cousin (who is way older than her) fetched us from the train station.
We had many pit stops along the way to his place.
He was very, very sweet.
You see, we were there for his son's wedding. But he was so sweet to fetch us and bring us around the kampung area before arriving at his place. So many pit stops!!!
One of the pit stops was eating durians!!!! Baru jatuh durians!! Awesome lah say!!!
with the lalats around, i didnt care! so sedap lah!

Upon reaching his place, so many of Dd's relatives were there.
I felt out of place initially but her family were all soo welcoming.
Some of the people older than Dd actually salam her with cium tangan.
Coz she is an aunt there. heheheh. SO CUTE LAH!!! that small gerl ar!

After that, everything was quite a blur. I think we were train-lag. hahah.
WE SLEPT!!!!

Next mornin, we were brought to a sungai and went to Achu's aunty's place.
There were more durian trees! and they have a pond where they rear fishes.
Didi's mum n dad fished while i was busy snappin pics here and there.

With the fish that they caught and the freshly picked kangkong,
we were served with fried fish and sambal kicap wif sambal belacan kangkong!!!
POWER!!!!!

then off to the wedding.
The pengantin were disappointing tho.
(we know of the reason why later on.)

There was this "pak andam". Very cute. He's only 17 but does gd make up lah!
The whole affair was only a while.
After which we were tired again n slept!
We didnt even help with the KEMAS-ing lah!!!!!!!!
TAK BAIK SAY!!
I feel bad. With the great and warm hospitality that they gave me, i should have at least help.
But i didnt. DARN! Sorry Achu.

At night (after noon nap), we were brought to this outdoor eating area where they were showing "Jangan Tegur". We were so into the scary movie when suddenly sum other patrons changed the disc and started Karaokeing sum P.Ramlee song!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wadda hell?!!!!!!!!
POTONG STEAM lor!

Back at home, me n dids cudnt get to sleep.
We played some small kids' game.
This will be our little secret DD. HAHAHHAHA.
(Merah is mine tho. w/o doubt.)
*bluek*

This morning, we were served breakfast.
I tell you, this orang2 kampung really treat their guests well.
really.
When we were asleep, sum1 will make sure we have our blankets.
And then ensure that we eat before going off.
I felt so homely coz
Sum of Achu's sedara kissed my cheeks and forehead.

Btw dids, I was really2, really2 touched when ur dad referred to me...
"Ni achu nya kawan baik. Dah anggap macam keluarga dah."
Awwwwwwww. Thanks DD!
Ur family is soooooo nice.
Tho i duno how true that is lah.
But I am very comfortable with them.

In all, the trip was an eye-opener for me.
Like he said, "Aku sungguh teruja."
Heheheheheh!
Here are the many2 photos i've taken. Uploaded for DD n Her FAMILY. ENJOY!!!!!! Did i mention i love kids??? GOSH! There were soooo many of them. tho not responsive. gotto sleep. new job tomorrow. nytes ppl!

bored

2009-06-05T16:48:00.002+08:00

He twitted back at me once.
Only.
Damn!

I was with Yus ytd hangin out wif him during lunch as usual.
We were at our usual spot and there's always this Indian guy serving us.
He knows our drinks already. Heaven & Earth Green Tea for me and Coke for him.
Ytd he gave me a I-know-ur-secret smile. and i was thinking...
OH. I remembered sitting there with Sham the other day. He maybe thinking i was cheating on Yus. So funny. hahahah.

after work... i chilled with him again at the place in front of Masjid Sultan.
Just talkin cock as usual. But after each session, i always get sth useful out of it.
ytd was:
"Do not love sum1 more than u love HIM because HE will take the person fr u w/o u realising it."

I'm off to PAHANG!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

out wif azila n az

2009-06-02T23:24:00.006+08:00

like finally. hahaha! So we went Lot 1 - the most happening place apparently.

NOT!

Ate at Pastamania. not nice. Dun like it. :(

Then caught Terminator Salvation.

which

I dun get it cause i didnt catch the rest of the Terminator series.

Nonetheless, worth every cent!

AWESOME show!!!!

Can't wait for Transformers2 tho!!!!!!!!!!
Here are ALL the pics babe. Even the blurry ones.

Unagi Pasta. Not nice ajer.

Mai purposely blocked my reflection.

Me and Mai accompanied Dd to top up her ez-link while Az n Azila went hm.

And we saw this!

Always wanted to try.

You know...like "a lot like love"?

So we did!

Click! Instructions showed please put ur face in the red circle.

U know wat? We totally did! Without thinking, we squeezed our 3 heads in the small red circle.
These 2 was the result:

Punyalah Pandai!

The thing is we felt cheated because we can't do the fun photos thing. wadda hell?????

and then Dids finally topped up.

and our cheated faces.

Nytes!

good find

2009-06-01T18:59:00.003+08:00

HAHA!!! Spot the odd one out.

clue: the one wif the big arms.

PLEASE TAKE NOTE THAT WE DO NOT WORK FOR NTUC FAIRPRICE!!!!!

We are under the UNION!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAIYO!

hectic

2009-06-01T17:49:00.002+08:00

ndp training was tortourous but nonetheless, fun.
thanks to Dids, Kak Das, Mia, Papa Bear, Abg/Cik Salleh and Tok Zam2.

Fad is outta my life. again.
Things people do for love. Awwww..

and then working wif Supi ard was funny. so blur lah u dude!
BUT i give u A* for effort!!!
hehe.

worked split shift ytd. 12pm - 6pm & 8pm - 2am.
I was wif the Stewarding team. Wash dishes! hehe.
Everyone was very welcoming there. The Head Chef even gave me a BIG bowl of his dessert!!!!
SUPER, SUPER REFRESHING and EXTREMELY TASTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can literally taste it ryte now. :)

My galfriend, Mai, was so shweeeet. She came down all the way from Jurong just to accompany me before my next shift. Thanks babe. So i decided to give her a 'treat' and we went to Sungei Road or what people call Thieves' Street. And we really got an AWESOME treat lor!
Mai bought:
1. necklace @ $3.50
2. Shirt @ $2

I bought:
1. book @ 50cents!
2. vest @ $3.50
3. necklace @ $3.50

On top of that, we got a free bra each!!! weeeee!!!
NO! IT'S NOT A USED BRA. PLEASE HOR!
The uncle who sold me the book was so0 generous to give us the bra.
which was in a box. those that are stringless kind. so yeah.
heh.

you can call us cheapskate for all we care!

having worked till 2, i started my normal working hours at 8am tis mornin.
Mai again gave me a ride to work. SO NICE RYTE MY GALFREN? hehehe.
Thanks a whole lot babe!!!!!!!!
LOVE YOU! HAHAHHAH!

I just took 2 tablets. Cannot take it. SO tired yet cannot sleep. dengs lah el!
wanna upload photos but so lazy!

ok...the thing is takin effect. yey!

but wait.... UMI is gettin durians....!!!! Haiyo.

scrambler Mc Delivery guy

2009-05-27T11:27:00.002+08:00

I'm on off today thinkin that the match between Man Utd and Barca was this morning. Darn. Wat a waste! But nonetheless, shall make the best of today. :) I had slept since 5 pm ytd, waking up for solats in between and woke up at 10 this morning. With a blocked nose, i just intend to watch movies all day long. (wat happened to make the best of today?) Thats just one of the idea. Oh yeah. Gotto do up a drawing for a wall at work regarding Housekeeping. Hmmmm.....

bout the title, i've been noticing the guy doing his deliveries to and fro the main road. hehehe.
I know.
Random.

Babes are all busy working... i think when i officially start my full-time job,i would have no time for updates. like az. We'll c how.

WE celebrated Mummy's birthday on the 25th. It started off badly. Alhamdulillah... everything went well. I hope she stays strong. We love u Umi.

merah

2009-05-20T00:15:00.001+08:00

He looks really gorgeous in that white baju melayu.
He just blow me away...

I forgot bout puteh for a moment. haha.

random

2009-05-19T18:56:00.003+08:00

I did twit about the need to blog. So here i am i guess. HEHE..

Lets c... seriously duno wat to blog about but am kinda feel bored..so i guess i just blog about watever that comes up at the top of my head.

1. SUPI. "U're my one and only, El. Sumpah."... mcm paham lah lu dol. :)
Nonetheless, he made me smile... *big wide-teeth grin*

2. YUS. Annoying. He's just like one of those guys or rather like wat Supi says. like chewing gum. Except that i'm the chewing gum lah. Once the sweetness is gone, he'll spit it out and pop in the next one. *sigh* But he said "All your assumptions about me are wronglah babe. Its ok, as time go by, we will get to know more about each other." .....yeah ryte! But our lunch dates (thats wat he calls it) are always awesome. every 1 n 1/2 hour wif him everytym is well spent. always wished we had more time. we would seek for diff place to eat everytym! the other day sittin wif him at the coffeshop, just toying wif my camera (coz he has a love for cameras too) was...just nice. but well, he's just one of those guys who always have hot babes as gfs. so wat am i??? KURAP. no! chewing gum. so yeah.

3. FAMILY. Mum has quit her job in hoping and praying that things will get beta. I have been praying (Alhamdulillah). I'm ashamed of myself for not doing them all these while. That i am being completely honest here. Cept during bulan puasa. I wanna be a better Muslim. Insya'Allah. meanin no more booze for me. I'll try. Insya'Allah. All for my family...

4. FLOOD. There was a flood at Park Royal Hotel today (i duno if i can actually leak this info out or not). It was great. We are pooled in to clear the water away. It was tough work. My back is aching after all the scoopin of water using the dustpan!!!! The main big pipe burst! Damn TEROK!!! the 1st level n basement were flooded!

5. INTERVIEW. I went for an informal interview ytd. Mind u... went after the counting of dirty linen! ALL BUSOK and SWEATY!!!!!!!!!!! i thought it went great though. But there was sth amiss wich i duno watlah. We'll c how it goes lah.

6. BALI. I may be going there alone. *sigh*

7. DRIVING. I went cruising again wif Mai ytd. Did two major mistakes. One, overtake a taxi when i have not even pass him. SO DANGEROUS! Two, i almost made a scratch on Mai's car coz i was too close to a stationary vehicle. HEHEHE. SORRY BABE. I'll be very careful nxt tym. THE ANNOYING THING WAS.......I STILL DUNO HOW TO PARK W/O POLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAiyoh!!! penat say try n try. then my reversing skills pun not good. *sigh* How ar Az????????

8. BANGLA magnet. wassup wif me and this bevy of humans? first it was the ball scratching one in the train. now its the ever so pest askin me for coffee. APER CKP?

9. PHOTOS. Sigh. YALOR2! Take photos but duno how to put em out. Not duno. Just plainly leceh. aiyo. EL!!!!!!!!!!! pls hor! Curb that habit!

10. NDP. NO ADIDAS SHOE???????????? WADDA!!! but then again.. its for fun.. i just wish that i can march wif DD next tym round tho. I wish i am shortlah or babe!!! pls grow just a tat 5cm taller or sth???? its seriously no fun lor w/o u. *sigh* i'm not sociable ok. n i dun relli like the makcik2 NDP. SUPER ANNOYIN! and the 'small' gerl... hmmmmm i smell sth fishy about her.

11. PUTEH. ok2. have to finish the series.

I need to go solat n kemas my room now... TOODLES!

BTW AZ, UPDATE LEH... hehehehehhe

i still want puteh...

2009-05-14T23:06:00.002+08:00

DD, i want my Puteh.

Funny how some people do not trust that I can finally drive.

"Ur face ar? Sure or not?"

i know. This small girl here can drive?

"YALOR. YALOR" said others.

Alhamdulillah

2009-05-13T18:40:00.003+08:00

I drove the best i could.
I focused.

But,

but...

but why did he keep tapping on the tablet thingie???
*sigh*

nvm el. Focus.
whatever outcome it's gonna be, just accept it.

"Park the car. Follow me to the tester's room."

i obeyed.
and followed..out of the car, through the door, up the stairs and into the room.

he said,"Choose a spot and wait for me."
"Yes sir."

n i waited...

N he walked into the room with a paper.
"Ok. You passed."

ALHAMDULILLAH........

I didnt believe it!!!!
with 6 points.

Alhamdulillah.....

ermmm.. wat was it ar?

2009-05-10T23:26:00.002+08:00

Its the end of the week. I think I'm really getting old each day. I met Mai a LOT this week. say... since Wednesday!!! and by Friday, when i was chillin wif her, we had kinda forgotten wat we had done on thurs n wed! Our memory is failing us every second. Darn! and am too bz to blog wif ol these issues going on. This can't happen! I have to update each day. no matter how lil.

Oh wait! I have my Twitter to rely on. OHK....nice! Thanks DIDI for doing that for me.

i wanna upload photos but kinda penat. insya'allah tomorrow.
NYTES!

the meeting

2009-05-06T23:21:00.003+08:00

We went to meet her.

"Sebab saya dah sayang dia.
Saya tak boleh lupakan dia.
Nak jugak kahwin ngan dia.
Tak boleh tinggalkan dia"

That face. I will never forget.

Dear Allah, please help us.